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Evening ya’ll

Just sitting here, listening to Sugarland “What I’d Give”, and thinking about… Mmmm

I am sooo in a strange place today.  I feel so…I don’t know…

My mind has been on him lately…alot…I think that’s why I ain’t sleeping…cuz my mind is wandering back… I think about it all, and I just have to sigh… Love makes us do some things that sometimes, we just look back on, and say…Wow…can I do that again..

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Your letting him get to you. You held on to long. I was there once, I know how you feel. He roped me in the exact same way. The only thing I don’t understand…is why you? Your just a plain jane tomboy. Not usually his type. He loves the well bred sophisticated types, and you sure as hell don’t fit that. I mean for God’s sake you drive a truck! Oh well, maybe he knows that we are catching on to his wiley ways. Just remember what I said, and you will be fine….Don’t let him dig in to deep.

Sincerely, Me

I reread the email again. Damn that prissy know-it-all attitude. I am a plain jane tomboy! Whatever! I pushed myself away from the desk and turned away from the brightness of the monitor. How does she know so much about me? Not a whole lot of ‘High Class Sophisticated Girls’ around here.

I decided to hop in the shower, and let the hot water wash away all the dirtiness I was feeling. I let the water heat up, and then stepped in gingerly, is was a little hotter than I normally liked it. I washed my hair, and then my body. That is when the memory came back to me.

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“Hey, so I decided to give you a call, we are headed down to the river on Saturday if you wanna come.” I said quietly into the phone.

“Jesse, so glad to hear from you. I would love to come down to the river, but I don’t think it’s the greatest place for the Porsche, though. Think I could just catch a ride with you?”

“Sure, I love to drive, and we can talk on the way. I usually leave here about 10, but I don’t know where you are, so we may need to leave early.”

Josh laughed, “Well, I am out near Weatherford. Hope that isn’t to far outta the way, I will cover the gas and drinks.”

“Ummm, nope shouldn’t be to far outta the way, Glenrose is South of you, we can just take the back roads. More fun for the truck.” I grinned as I thought about all the twisty roads, I thought about how fun it would be to drive his porsche on those roads. “So we will need to leave your place by 9, you okay with that? Also, make sure you have a good pair of old shoes to wear in the river that you don’t mind getting muddy and wet, and a sturdy pair of swim trunks.”

“No Problems Jessers. I will send you directions. Is this your cell number?”

“Yeah, just text ‘em to me, and I will see you Saturday about 8:30 or so.”

“Later”

“Later” I pressed the end button on my cell, and squealed excitedly. I called my Best Friend Shelly, and told her I was bringing a friend on Saturday. She squealed just as loudly. I told her all about last Saturday as I opened a pint of Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream. We talked for an hour, then I told her I would see her Saturday, and to make sure that her brothers mind their manners.

Saturday morning, I was up at 6am. Showered, hair up in a ballcap, my lime green bikini top with a white tank top over it, and my cut off’s with my ‘River’ shoes, a beat up pair of what used to be white, canvas tennies. I grabbed my ice chest, and tossed it in the back, and bungeed it to the toolbox, so it wouldn’t slide around, grabbed my tent and an overnight bag, just in case we stayed later than expected, and threw them in the toolbox.

It was 7:00 when I left my place, and 8:15 when I got to Josh’s place, I pulled up outside a beautiful two story brick house. I swear I could have fit three of my apartments in his downstairs area. The garage was massive from what I could see from the outside. He walked out to meet me, he had an overnight bag as well.

“Be Prepared, isn’t that the Boyscout motto?” He laughed as he threw his bag into the toolbox.

“Something like that.” I smiled at him.

We hopped into the truck, and we were off. We drove with just the music for a while, until he half turned and looked at me. I was trying to keep my focus on the road, but kept peaking over at him.

“So, where are you dragging me off to?”

I grinned, “Well, my Best Friend form highschool has some land out in Glenrose, with a good chunk of River on it and a great mudding hole that her brothers play in with their, ummm, toys. Sometimes we camp out all night, just depends on the weather.”

“Hmmm, so you do this every weekend?”

“Nope, just when we can, in the Summer we try for every weekend, but stuff comes up, so we don’t always get to. In the Fall, we go out and play in the leaves, and Spring it’s always raining, so we mud around and play on the four wheelers. It’s fun, and a getaway from the city life.” I looked both ways before crossing the railroad tracks.

“Sounds like you two are pretty close?”

“Yeah, she has been there for me, ever since I lost my parents in a car accident. They were on their way to my graduation party. A big rig came over into their lane, and they hit a bridge pillar at 70mph. The coroner said they didn’t suffer, they died on impact. I choose to believe that, for my own well being. After the funeral, Shelly, my best friend, and her family looked after me.”

“Wow, I am sorry for your loss. It’s great that you have such a close friend.”

We drove in silence for a bit. “So, what about you Josh, that’s an expensive house and car you got there.”

“Well, my dad is in the oil business in South Texas. I chose to live closer to where my mom was raised. He set me up. House, cars, whatever. He and Mom have been seperated for about three years now. She lives down the road in the family house.”

Again, the silence. After driving for about two hours, we finally reached Shelly’s turnoff for the ranch. We drove over the cattle-guard, and into the hilly countryside.

We drove about 5 miles, and on the horizon was a single story ranch house that was surrounded by dogs, and vehicles. There were two basset hounds baying as we pulled in, along with Black Labrador and a Golden Retriever. There in the driveway was a black Jeep Wrangler with the ‘Mudding Package’ on it. An 08 Chevy truck with a ‘Mudding Package’ on it, and two Ford Broncos.

The front door opened as I pulled in, and Shelly and her three brothers came running out the door. I stopped threw the truck in park, hopped out and was immediately pulled into a group hug.

“Josh, this is Shelly, Bobby, James, and Johnny. They will be our guide this weekend.” At that, the boys grabbed me and together hoisted me up in the air, and carried me toward the house.

“Mom has cookies waiting on you, little bit.” Johnny the youngest with chocolate brown eyes, and jet black hair hollered.

I laughed and told them I could walk just fine. Josh was trying to hide a laugh. Shelly walked over to him, patted him on the shoulder, and said, “Welcome to Heathenville, make yourself at home.”

The boys put me down at the porch, and the basset hounds Betsy and Bo came sidling up to me. I rubbed them both down as I wandered inside to grab a fresh baked chocolate chip cookie. Josh following along, like he belonged there.

(More to come)

Okay…so the past couple of days, I look at my blog and I say…what am I gonna write about today? Then I stare at my computer and well…it sits there. The monitor showing the various screens I switch between. The Base humming…and well…I sit here…and stare somemore. I turn on my iTunes…maybe that will inspire me….no. So I look through past pictures, I look at pics in my gallery. Nope…nothing. So, I get this idea…how about I write about not being able to write. Maybe that will inspire some kind of mental click, and I will be able to get past my block. So this is where I am…

Yeah…I got nothing. I hear the music, feel the air around me, and try to get the ‘vibe’….where has it gone???? I think I have lost my blogging mojo…LMAO. I haven’t been inspired lately. I haven’t seen anything that made me go WOW!

Oh well….maybe I just need to relax and maybe it will come to me….

Onward ya’ll!!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

I sit here in the darkness.

The sound of water and nature pouring from the speakers.

I relax and open my mind. I see the inside of me, and realize that it is kinda blue right now. I feel the music reach out to me, and I close my eyes, and let it caress my soul. Maybe one day it will be clean, and I will get to see the me, that has been missing all these years. I thought I had found it a year ago. Then she went back into hiding.

I sit here and I wonder will I ever be the me I used to be? Will I ever be the me I want to be? I miss the me, that was always smiling, always happy, always there for whoever needed me. Now I am smiling sometimes, laughing when I need to. There when asked and well sometimes not there at all. I have lost my best friend over it all, and I have missed years of my life living in the nether regions of my heart and soul. I gave all I had to one person for so long, I don’t know that I will ever find me again. She is here, I feel her…..I just need the right person to bring her back.

Well, guys and gals, I think that this CD is making me Uber sleepy. Thanks for letting me share. I appreciate it!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty