Evening ya’ll!

Been a long day.  Been a long week, and it’s only Tuesday.  I woke up this morning thinking it was Wednesday.. boy was I disappointed to discover it was Tuesday.  I made it through the day though

Been thinking a lot.  Thinking about my relationship, thinking about my family, and thinking about people in my life.  What’s weird, are the thoughts I am having…  I won’t go into details.. I may have to privately write that out.  I am just kinda confused about some things.. and about what I thought was supposed to happen.  We have this picture or idea in our heads about how things are supposed to happen, and when it doesn’t happen like that.. well, it makes a person wonder if their perceptions were misconstrued and discombobulated.  Again, it would be difficult to go into here, but I think it’s almost time for my head to have a talk with my heart, and for them to come to a unified decision and conclusion without being persuaded otherwise.

I am trying.  Trying hard.  I feel like it’s just not enough.  I have people who accuse me of doing something.. that I didn’t.  I am not a cheater, liar, or thief.  I think cheating is one of the worst things to do to a person, next to murder and abuse.  Cheating breaks down trust and breaks down hope, faith and love.  It only brings heartache, and don’t think that it happens and the other person doesn’t know about it.  Lieing.. it’s stupid to do it.  All lieing does is lead to more lies, which leads to someone getting caught and hurt.  Why would you do it?  Thief?  Never.  The only thing I can ever be accused of stealing is someone’s heart… and that hasn’t happened in a while.  So, where did this come from?  Well, being called a liar is something that irks me, just a bit.  If you ask me a question, and then take the answer out of context, then that isn’t lieing, that is you not using your communication skills.  If you ask a question and don’t get the response you wanted, don’t twist the words and throw them back at me.  For those that think that just because I have a boyfriend that lives out-of-state, that I can still go out with you.. You are wrong!  Again, I don’t cheat.. not in my forte.  It hurts the people who are involved, directly or indirectly.

I really should be going to bed now.  I have to be up in about 6 hours.  Wednesday is here now.  So, we can say we are half way through the work week.  Makes for an interesting day today, I am sure.

So, to wrap this up.  I need to think more about whats going on in here (points to head then heart) and make sure I don’t give anyone a reason to think that I would lie to them, cheat or any other of those bad things.  So, as my eyes begin to droop, I will bid you goodnight!

<3 Kitty

After a great weekend, spending virtual time with my honey.. I may just go insane.

I miss my Bear!  We talked almost all weekend and shared some cutesy texts.. but I miss the dickens outta him.  I really just want him to be here

Other than the missing him every other second of the day.. My week should be good.

I even tried to work out some frustrations by taking the blazer up to wash it.. and felt like it did absolutely no good.  It looks dirtier now than it did before the washing O.o  I took the kids to the grocery store with me, which is a bad idea.. It’s Mom can I have this.. or Mom he did this.. Mom she’s touching me.. Oy!  It makes for an interesting trip to Wal-Mart.

Hoping to get some more writing done sometime this week   I really need to try to keep my mind occupied.. when it’s not occupied, I wonder off to think about my Bear.  This isn’t all bad   Just quite distracting.

Well, yall have a wonderful week.. See ya on the flip side!

<3 Kitty

Interesting thought.  Does your past really come back to haunt you?

They say that you should let your past be just that.. in the past.  Live in the here and now.. Live for your future.  So, does it hurt when you catch a glimpse of someone’s past in a remote way and what you see, makes you wonder?  Should you just leave it at that.. Past?  Everyone has some sort of skeleton in their closet, whether it’s something huge.. or something small.. It’s there.  Some of us have shared these skeletons, or at least little tidbits of these skeletons.  Why then would something that you already are aware of.. make you wonder?

I know I am all over the place and quite cryptic, just trying to work it all out in my head.  Is it the thought that maybe there is something hidden there, and you don’t want to uncover it all, because you are scared of what may be revealed?  It scares me everyday that I am going to uncover something about someone that will change the way I feel and look at them.  I should just let the past be the past, and leave the present anc future to work itself out.

Still I wonder… I look back over my past.. and I don’t have anything to terribly crazy that could come back to haunt me.  Maybe I just worry about the others in my life too much.  Who knows.. I am just rambling on here.. It’s all about nothing and something rolled up and packaged into a ball of worry and love.

One day, I will figure it all out.. the past.. the way it affects the now and the future and if I should dwell on it at all…

Happy Reading…

<3 Kitty

So, I am surrounded by friends and family in my life.  I have a great boyfriend.. but today.. I have this lonely feeling inside.  I don’t know where it’s coming from, but it’s there.  It could be lots of things, I am sure.  I miss my Bear   I would give almost anything to just have him here in my arms right now.

It could be all the illnesses in the family and the severity of some of them.  My aunt has to have lung surgery in the next two weeks sometime.  My mom has to have her gall bladder out, but first they have to figure out what the ‘oddity’ is that is blocking their view of her gallbladder.

It’s been a crazy couple of months, I am really hoping everything turns out for the best for my aunt and they determine it’s a non cancerous mass, and that the ‘oddity’ blocking the view of my moms gallbladder isn’t anything serious.

So,  in a nutshell, I am a worried lonely person.. LOL

Thanks for reading friends

<3 Kitty

Howdy ya’ll

Yay to blog again

So, what has been happening over the past two weeks?  My honey and I are doing fabulous, we have been dating for a little over  a month now

I have been working my hiney off the past couple of weeks as well, OT and late nights.. I am on a flex shift at work, and it has me working some crazy schedules sometimes.  As long as I have my iPod and a good book, I am okay with it

The kids and I went to the zoo, when the site becomes fully functional, I will upload some of the amazing pics I got (I think they are amazing).

Other than that, all is great here in Kitty’s world

Hope you all have a great day, I will catch up again with you soon!!!

<3 Kitty

Howdy ya’ll!

I know the site has been wonky over the past two weeks or so.. This is a temporary fix until we can get it fixed.  The server crashed and the Host company is trying to get it repaired.  Until then you can catch my updates here

Hope to see you all around soon

<3 Kitty

My iPod has beeb invaded by some old school (well old school for me O.o) songs… Monster ballads to say the least..I love monster ballads!  I listed a few that I really like, I could have gone on and on… but figured I wouldn’t bore you

ENJOY!!!!!

Tesla – Love Song

So you think that it’s over,
That your love has fin’lly reached the end.
Any time you call, night or day,
I’ll be right there for you if you need a friend.

It’s gonna take a little time.
Time is sure to mend your broken heart.
Don’t you even worry, pretty darlin’.
I know you’ll find love again. Yeah.

Love is all around you. Yeah
Love is knockin’ outside *YOUR* door.
Waitin’ for you is this love made just for two
Keep an open heart and you’ll find love again, I know.

Love is all around you.
Love is knockin’ outside **YOUR** door.
Waitin’ for you is this love made just for two
Keep an open heart and you’ll find love again, I know.

Love will find a way.
Darlin’, love is gonna find a way,
Find its way back to you.
Love will find a way.
So look around, open your eyes.
Love is gonna find a way.
Love is gonna, love is gonna find a way.
Love will find a way.
Love’s gonna find a way back to you, yeah,
I know. I know. I know. I know.

Warrant – Heaven

Got a picture of your house
And you’re standing by the door
It’s black and white and faded
And it’s looking pretty worn

See the factory that I worked
Silhouetted in the back
The memories are grey
but man they’re really coming back

I don’t need to be the king of the world
As long as I’m the hero of this little girl

Heaven isn’t too far away
Closer to it every day
No matter what your friends might say

How I love the way you move
And the sparkle in your eyes
There’s a color deep inside them
Like a blue suburban sky

When I come home late at night
And you’re in bed asleep
I wrap my arms around you
So I can feel you breathe

I don’t need to be a superman
As long as you will always be my biggest fan

Heaven isn’t too far away
Closer to it every day
No matter what your friends might say
We’ll find a way (Yeah!)

Now the lights are going out
Along the boulevard
The memories come rushing back
And it makes it pretty hard

I’ve got nowhere left to go
And no one really cares
I don’t know what to do
But I’m never giving up on you

(Heaven isn’t too far away)
Closer to it every day
No matter what your friends say
I know we gotta find a way

It’s not too far away.

Yeah!

Skid Row – I Remember You

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I’d think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I’d stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday – walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand – I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say – I remember you

We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I’d give my life for just one kiss
I’d live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday – walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand – I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say – I remember you

We’ve had our share of hard times
But that’s the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you’ll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
‘Cause you’ll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you

Remember yesterday – walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand – I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say – I remember you

Remember yesterday – walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand – I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say – I remember you

Winger – Headed for a Heartbreak

Morning came and I was on my way
When you reminded me
I had too soon forgotten
It was you that set me free
Yeah!!! You were here when I came
And you’ll be here when I’m gone
So don’t be waiting for love
Cause I’ll be waitin’ to ramble on

Chorus:
Headed for a heartbreak
Headed for a heartbreak

Darling, don’t wait up for me
Tonight I won’t be home
You’ve become a stranger
I just got to be alone
Don’t need nobody on my side
To dull the blade I’m on
Don’t be waitin’ for love
Cause I’ll be waitin’ to ramble on

Chorus:
Headed for a heartbreak
Headed for a heartbreak
Headed for a heartbreak

It’s no mistake
Don’t you think I can feel the pain
I walk away
To live again

Solo

Chorus:
Headed for a heartbreak
Headed for a heartbreak
Don’t make me hurt you
Headed for a heartbreak
Cause I love you
Headed for a heartbreak

Don’t you think I feel the pain…..

Kiss – Forever

I gotta tell you what I’m feelin’ inside, I could lie to myself, but it’s true
There’s no denying when I look in your eyes, girl I’m out of my head over you
I lived so long believin’ all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin’ me this time

It’s forever, this time I know and there’s no doubt in my mind
Forever, until my life is thru, girl I’ll be lovin’ you forever

I hear the echo of a promise I made
When you’re strong you can stand on your own
But those words grow distant as I look at your face
No, I don’t wanna go it alone
I never thought I’d lay my heart on the line
But everything about you is tellin’ me this time

It’s forever, this time I know and there’s no doubt in my mind
Forever, until my life is thru, girl I’ll be lovin’ you forever yeah!

I see my future when I look in your eyes
It took your love to make my heart come alive
Cos I lived my life believin’ all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin’ me this time

It’s forever, this time I know and there’s no doubt in my mind
Forever, until my life is thru, girl I’ll be lovin’ you forever

It’s forever, this time I know and there’s no doubt in my mind
Forever, until my life is thru, girl I’ll be lovin’ you forever

This is a great song

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you’re not something I deserve

In my head there’s only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there’s real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don’t know who I am
I’m torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don’t know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I’m goin through

In my head there’s only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there’s real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don’t know who I am
I’m torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don’t know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me go…
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can’t escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

You love me but you don’t know who I am
I’m torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don’t know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don’t
You love me but you don’t
You love me but you don’t know who I am
And you love me but you don’t
You love me but you don’t
You love me but you don’t know me

Down to you
You’re pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don’t know what I
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should’ve never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should’ve never thought of you of you

You’re pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don’t know what I want
No, I don’t know what I want

You got it you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic hypnotic
You’re leaving me breathless
I hate this I hate this
You’re not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should’ve never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something
That I should’ve never thought of you of you

You’re pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don’t know what I want
No, I don’t know what I want

Don’t know what I want
But I know it’s not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
When I know in my heart it’s not you

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I’m saying something
That I should’ve never thought
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I’m saying something
That I should’ve never thought of you

I knew, I know in my heart it’s not you
I knew, but now I know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I’ve should have never thought

I’ve heard tell that it’s magik

I’ve heard tell that it’s you

I’ve heard tell that it sneakes into my heart

I’ve heard tell that it’s true

I walked into you

I let you in

I opened up my heart

Does this mean you win

I’ve heard tell that it’s magik

That makes my heart beat so

I’ve heard tell that it’s magik

Is this truly so

The spell is cast

The case is closed

My heart beats fast

True colors are shown

I’ve heard tell that it’s magik

I’ve heard that it’s true

I’ve heard tell that it’s magik

My heart belongs to you