Love and Hate

The two strongest words you can ever use. Think about it…the extreme differences between them.

Love. We all have it, we all want it, we all have varying degrees of it. It starts when we are just born, there is that automatic connection with our parents. That undying unwavering love. As we grow we fall in love with everything, our first toy, our first blankie, our first pet, our first friend. Then it grows with us as we grow. We fall in love with our first boyfriend…you know…Puppy love, and when our heart gets broken, we vow never to fall in love again. Then there is the ‘one’ love, and we think that nothing will ever change the way we feel about that person. Nothing will ever break that bond. Then we enter another realm….Love is very strong and we think that it is unbreakable and that we are what we are because of love.

Hate. Strong word, and I don’t use it lighly. It can encompass all sorts of things. We can hate food, we can hate objects, we can even hate people. Hate though, is such a strong emotion, and to truly hate someone is scary. I have been there, and I am still there in ways. I once had a friend, that well did something that really hurt me. He messed my best friend up. Mentally and emotionally. I bring love in here. See I love my best friend, we have been friends for 13 years and have shared things with each other, that some people just wouldn’t understand. Because of the love that I have for her, I hate him. He put her in a bad place!! He wrecked her!! I have to say that it is partially my fault. I introduced them, and was like, I think he would be good for you. I was soo wrong!!

I regret that day with every being of my soul!! She would have been so much happier if he hadn’t come into her life, and I blame myself for her pain, and hurt. I hate him…He is the only person in this world I can say that about. I hate him…more than I can love anyone else.

So, you ask me why amd I writing about love and hate? Well I was thinking on the way home, about all of the conflicting emotions and mental traps I have thrown at myself lately, and well it all revolves around the different levels of love and hate in my life. I love so many people in so many different ways, that it makes up for the one person I hate. So…I have to say that there is a balance, a balance of love and hate, and it takes a lot of love in the world to override the hate. If we could all learn to love a little more, then I think there would be less hate in the world.

Well, I guess that is it for this evening. Remember to love the ones you can, while you can, and then love them even more when you can’t!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Tomorrow….

We are all told to live in today. Live for today. What if I want to live for tomorrow? What if I want to make tomorrow last forever?

We all know that won’t happen, it is always a wish. I guess if most of you haven’t discovered yet, I am all about sharing my feeling with you guys and gals through my words. You will witness everything from the happiest moments of my life to the most destructive moments in my life. I probably should have made that a Note on the Main Page…LOL.

I just wanted to share the above with you so that I could share everything with you. I am an open book, and pretty easy to read. I don’t really want much in my life. I just want my kids to go to college and be able to take care of themselves. I want to be able to say that I am a homeowner one of these days. I want to be able to get the vehicle I want, and not have to settle for just anything. I want to eventually find that someone special in my future to settle down with. Not to many things that I really want to do with my life…right? I know I started this off by talking about tomorrow. Why we can’t live in tomorrow and keep it there? Sometimes I think that if we keep looking for tomorrow we will miss today. Maybe I don’t need to be in tomorrow. I don’t know where I want to be right now. I thought I knew once, where I wanted to be. Well things change, right? I had someone tell me some things this weekend, that made me wonder if I was giving it all up? I know that doesn’t make a whole helluva lot of sense. I was told that a missed oppurtunity could be a life altering experince. I told them, I didn’t miss the oppurtunity, I didn’t want to take the oppurtunity. Why? It wouldn’t make a difference. It won’t change the way anyone looks at me. It won’t change the way anyone feels. It won’t make anything any different. So why do it? Well, they told me…it might make a difference in the long run. I told them…the long run may not be what I need or want.

Anyways, I stray from where I should be…this is kinda all over the place!!! I think it’s because I am uber tired. I haven’t been sleeping well, and well it sucks!! Yeah….there I go…blah blah blah!! Well I guess I am gonna stop for the night!! Ya’ll have a wonderful week!! See ya round!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

When we are baby’s our parents want us to talk, they want us to tell them what we want. As we get older, they say. “Use your words.”

You would think that all that ‘training’ and ‘molding’ would make everything easier. Why is it then, that when you get to a point in your life you feel like ‘using your words’ would do more harm than good? I am a talker..duh! Sometimes though, I get to a point to where I feel like my words aren’t going to help. Yeah we can all say that communication is one of the most important things in any realtionship, be it friends, lovers, family or work. Communicate how you feel, tell us what you want, tell me what makes you happy….blah blah blah. I think that communication is helpful, yes, but I have wondered if it isn’t harmful too? I hear from people all the time, just say what you feel, that will always make things better. No…I don’t think so. I think that sometimes keeping it in is a good thing…then again, I wonder am I keeping in the right stuff and letting the right stuff out?

So, let me touch on a ‘touchy’ communication issue. This is just an example!!

Say there is someone you care about. You have for a while, but because of your relationship status with each other, you are scared to tell him/her how you really feel. Several factors come into play here. You hear things from people close to him/her that tell you that they aren’t what you think they are or that they are not what you really need/want because they are this way or that way. Do you take this into condsideration? So you ask him/her about it? Do you leave it alone?

What if you talk to him/her and you almost bare your soul to them and then pull back at the last second, because they just didn’t seem to want to hear you? Do you just continue on and hope they listen, or do you walk away and hold it all inside?

So, these are all issues you can run into. What does a person do? You can talk to them and they could either love you for it, or hate you, right? You can walk away and not say a thing and pass up the greatest oppurtunity of a lifetime. I guess we all have to judge what we want to say, and who we want to say it to. We all have to decide which path we will walk down. Be it at home, work, or with the one you love.

It’s a tough world we live in, and we can either make it easier or harder on oursleves. It just depends on what route you are willing to take. We can all take the easy way out, or we could suffer the trials and tribulations of life and go the hard way. I think that the hard way was put in front of me, and I challenged myself. I think that I will learn from it, and be able to grow from the experiences placed in front of me.

Thank you for letting me share!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

All I can say is WOW it was a long and full weekend!! Friday night I took Mom out to my aunt’s, then hit Dairy Queen on the way back..OMG Cheesecake Blizzard…Rocks FTMFW!! Then came home…and crashed..I was tired!! Saturday got up early, and me and the kids and a friend went to the Zoo. That was sooo much fun!! Found out that my daughter is an aspiring photographer, and wants a camera for Christmas instead of a Nintendo DS!! Then after the Zoo we swam, then the grocery store, then I sat down and watched Saw 4!! That movie absolutely was the best one out of all the Saw movies!! Then I crashed by midnite Saturday. Sunday I went to go get Mom, then took the kids to the pool, then went to dinner and a movie with a friend, we saw Prince Caspian, that was an awesome movie!! I almost cried…almost. I was home by eleven and in bed by midnite…shocker for me!! Then I got up this morning and got ready for the ex mother in law to come over to have burgers and hot dogs with my nephew, and we all went to the pool, and played with water guns. Then we ate, and then I went over to someone I din’t know’s house cuz there were a few people there I did know. Got to meet a few new people and see some I haven’t seen in a couple of months. It was fun!! Now I am at home, and chatting with a friend and just relaxing, contemplating going to get munchy food!! It has been a pretty good weekend!!

Hugs and Kisses

Kitty

So…It’s the begining of a Holiday Weekend!! Yay!! I am excited!! I am taking the kiddos to the Zoo, then hopefully we are going to get to swim, as long as the pool is open!!

Then tomorrow, I am hanging with friends for dinner and a movie

Then Monday is a complete vegitation day…LMAO

Ya’ll have a safe weekend…I am sure there will be updates!!

Be Safe, Drive Carefully!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Only time will tell…

We walk through this life always wanting the expected to happen. Sometimes the unexpected happens and just takes our breathe away. I always believed the addedge of ecpect the unexpected and cling to what you know. It still amazes me though when things just occurr and you are like…why? and do I really deserve this? This goes for both the good and bad things in life. We all like the good things to happen, and still the bad creeps in. I know that we all will recover from the good, the bad, the ugly and the unexpectedly insane.

I really hope that I get more of the good unexpected surprises, and get to enjoy the thrill, hopes and dreams that come with them!! So, ya’ll have a great week, see ya on the flip side!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Ever wonder if doing something is going to be as fun and enjoyable as you make it out to be in your head?

I do that…and I am usually disappointed…until this evening…

I got to drive one of my favorite vehicles of all time. It was a third generation IROC Camaro. Wow!! It was like taking a piece of heaven down and putting my ass in the drivers seat. It was so totally amazing…it’s almost like the afterglow of sex!! Insanity!! I could soo get used to that…My goal in the next five years is to own a third gen Camaro!! I will have one…and then I am gonna drive the hell out of it!!

You really have to just be there. When you feel the rumble, and hear the engine just come to life!! I was nervous..I have to admit..I thinks it’s the most powerful vehicle I have ever driven. When you push the pedal and it responds…then taking a corner, and just feeling it hug…Joy Rapture!! Totally amazing!! Like nothing I have ever felt…and I only got it up to say 55 or 60mph…I can’t imagine what it would be like on the open road…doing say 80 or 90…OMG…the power, the feel…it could be almost better than sex!! LMAO…

Well I just had to share with everyone Yall have a good week!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Morning everyone…this is technically the Saturday bog…a little late!! D’oh

Hope everyone had a great weekend and had some fun. I did!! Went to an awesome BBQ and then a car show…it was really a lot of fun, I am beat and tired!!

Hope to see ya’ll around!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

What makes me angry? Do you really want to know? Let’s see…There are women in this world that give women like me a bad wrap before men even get to talk to me. How do I explain? The women out there who screw over the ones they love, loved, did love, have loved, never loved, just screwed…whatever…go around behind their ‘loved’ones back and do some crazy things. Messing with their hearts, getting all psycho by running off with other men, messing with a guys feelings because they can, or messing with things that aren’t even theirs just to try and get some ‘revenge’!!! For what…because he loved you? Because he gave everything he had for you? Because all he wanted was to be yours and to live the rest of his life for youand with you? Why do women have to go off and screw around on their men, and then act like he is the one who did something wrong? Women like that give women like me a bad name!!! I am a good woman. I never cheated on my ex while we were together. I never went on a vengeful rampage to mess upthe stuff that he had. I didn’t withhold stuff or try to turn his friends against him. Why do some people act all insane like that. It just irks me to know that some women out there have the gall to do it. Then try to turn it back on the guy. I know that some women are probably going to look at this and think that I am on crack, for supporting the guys here…it’s not that I am supporting the guy…it’s that I am not supporting the crazy women out there that just don’t know how to treat the men in their lives. It really just makes me angry. No I am not some submissive little girl who wants to fill her man full of praise for nothing…but I am a woman who when she loves the man she is with, will support him mentally, and sometimes physically if need be, but I am not the kind of woman who walks all over a man…that isn’t right.

I probably need to stop now, before I venture into uncharted territory and really go off. Guys if you read this…all women are not alike, there are still some of us good ones left. Girls, treat your men like you want to be treated. If you love them, love them. If you don’t, then just walk away and leave them in one piece, don’t tear them up so that someone like me has to try and put them back together.

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty