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Ever wonder what you are going to do when you think that someone is going to do a stupid act? Yeah…kinda vague. See there is a person in my life that I am trying to gently remove. They seem to keep coming back for more. Well. I think they are about to do something that will make me somewhat not happy. LOL. I really hope they don’t because, I am not a person who likes to make people feel bad, and when I am given something, I take it and say thank you. I don’t what I am going to do, if this person gets me something that I know and he knows he shouldn’t! I would send it back, but that is rude. LOL…..I am really to nice a person sometimes. Oh well, only thing I can do, is jsut hang out and see what happens, and judge my reactions to what shows up.

Hugs and Kisses,

Patience and Tolerance,

Kitty

Here we go!!

I am taking one of the best steps of my life today. I am letting go of the stuff that needs to go, and taking a step toward the beginnings of new life. I am ready for it. Completely. I think that once I am past this part of my life, the rest will fall into place. There will be more to come. I will let you all know when it is all final. Maybe I will throw a party!!

Have a good one!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Wow. Some people are just so full of themselves that they have to try and shove their beliefs down your throat. No, I am not talking about religion. I am just talking about in general. I am a good person. I believe in God. I believe in Freedom of Speech, and I believe in the right to bear arms. I also believe that there is a time and a place for everything, and that no matter who you are, you shouldn’t shove what you believe at anyone. Yes, I celebrated Independence Day, I tend to call it the Fourth of July, Why? I don’t know. Just something I do. Why do people have to come along and try to make it seem like I am being un-american or un-patriotic, because I call it the Fourth of July? Because some people are assholes, and they tend to think that you should do everything their way!! Yes I am ranting!! Maybe I am being overly sensitive, maybe I am overreacting, but Hell, it’s a free country and I have the write to freedom of speech, and I have the right to bitch!! So there ya go, I celebrated the Fourth of July this weekend. I also celebrated my freedom just like everyone else. Yeah, I am Texan and I can get hot blooded over little things too, and I usually try to keep it to myself…sometimes though one can’t help oneself…and well I had to let it go here. So, thanks for listening to my rant, and thanks for being here!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

I have nothing but time on my hands.

Nothing but time to pass.

I have nothing but time on my hands.

I have more time

less time

no time

anytime

I have nothing but time on my hands.

I have nothing but time on my mind.

I am losing time

finding time

making time

trying to stop time

I have nothing but time on my mind.

I have time in my hands, swirling through my thoughts, invading my dreams, and taking control of my heart.

I have nothing but time….I can’t seem to grasp it completely…it slips through my fingers, it flies by….it stops.

Nothing but time….

Where does it all go?

WOW!! Crazy weekend!!

So I went to an awesome car show on Saturday, got to be a judge..tee hee!! Then went to a friend’s house and swam and had hot dogs and played the Wii…which has convinced me I need to get one for Christmas!! Today I did my first modification to my car!! She got a cone filter…and she sounds way cool!! YAY!! Thanks for the early birthday present!!

You can find pics here:

http://gallery.kittyteaser.org/v/mycar/

So, all in all a good weekend.

I am beat though. I am sooo tired. To much sun!!

Ya’ll have a good one!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Howdy all!!

Well should be a good weekend!!

So tonight I have Katja coming over we are going to have dinner and watch some sort of movie, or just vegitate. Tomorrow I am getting up early and heading to Waxahachie for a carshow then to a friends for some yummy BBQ!!

Then on Sunday Mom comes home, and back to the family life…LMAO!!

Okay all!! Well that was short and sweet…so until next time!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

I sit here in the darkness.

The sound of water and nature pouring from the speakers.

I relax and open my mind. I see the inside of me, and realize that it is kinda blue right now. I feel the music reach out to me, and I close my eyes, and let it caress my soul. Maybe one day it will be clean, and I will get to see the me, that has been missing all these years. I thought I had found it a year ago. Then she went back into hiding.

I sit here and I wonder will I ever be the me I used to be? Will I ever be the me I want to be? I miss the me, that was always smiling, always happy, always there for whoever needed me. Now I am smiling sometimes, laughing when I need to. There when asked and well sometimes not there at all. I have lost my best friend over it all, and I have missed years of my life living in the nether regions of my heart and soul. I gave all I had to one person for so long, I don’t know that I will ever find me again. She is here, I feel her…..I just need the right person to bring her back.

Well, guys and gals, I think that this CD is making me Uber sleepy. Thanks for letting me share. I appreciate it!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Grrrr

So I got home at about 1230 this morning, and on the way in I hit my big toe on the curb, and proceeded to bleed all over the damned house, while my cat is trying to kill me by tripping me up!! I didn’t sleep well again, my shoulder has a tight muscle in it, and it’s killing me!! I can’t relax enough to play bejeweled 2 as well as I normally would. I am stuck at work and well I am bored…I am ranting..yes!!

I feel better for that. I love the therapy I get from writing. I was recently asked if I read my own blogs…yep!! I go back a few days later and review what I wrote, because sometimes when I get caught up in the heat of the moment of sharing my feelings, I get ummm very open. Yes, that is actually what I am feeling when I write it. To me some people are easy to talk to. Some are not so easy to talk to. I don’t know why, but that is just the way it is. So, when I write I feel like I am communicating the way I feel in a way that hopefully other people can understand it.

It’s like trying to describe a picture to a blind person. They can’t see what you are telling them, but if given enough time and with patience, when you describe the picture, they will see it. Eventually you get everything detailed enough and explained enough that they see what you are telling them. It may take several times to get it completely right, but with enough patience everything will fall into place in their eyes. Then you see the whole picture and not just whats on the surface, and so do they.

Like I have said it’s about communication. I communicate differently with different people. Some people I can just open up and talk with, like we have been the best of friends forever. Others, I get around, and I clam up. It’s not because of anything they have or haven’t done, it’s because I don’t know what to expect from them. Even after knowing someone for a while, you tend to still not be able to read them. I would love nothing more than to be able to look them in the eye and just talk to them. About everything on my mind. I get around them, though, and it’s like the walls come up. Maybe I just think I am going to get hurt by what I see or hear. Strange…I know. I wish I could fix it, I guess that blogging is my way to do that. I can talk to those people with out actually talking to them. Does that make sense? I can get across through the written word, what I can’t say in the verbal word. Then if there is anything that is felt when they read it, they have the choice to talk to me about it, and prepare themselves for the walled in part of me. It doesn’t take much to get through the walls, you just have to be gentle and not force them down.

So, there is a little insight into why I write. It’s all about being able to communicate effectly where I can’t normally. Some may look at it as the chicken shit way to do things, but it’s not. It’s a way to get the other person to communincate back. Hopefully in a understandable and effective way…LOL!!

Ya’ll have a good one!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

It is Saturday evening and I am at work. Yep…work. I should be doing something other than sitting in a cold building freezing my toes off!! Wanna know what sucks even more than that? I gotta do it again tomorrow!

Self torture!! It’s lovely…Well anyways. The kids and Mom are on vacation. I am at the house all by my lonesome for the next two weeks. I actually enjoyed the quiet last night. I watched a movie, see previous post, and it was quiet, and noone was trying to talk to me during the movie and asking me stupid questions or running in front of the TV and then stopping to stand there…..Ahhhhhhhh (big sigh)…LMAO!!

I really could use a massage therapist right now though!! my left shoulder is stiff, don’t know why…but it hurts like the dickens!! Oh well!! I guess I’ll live…right? A little less than a month from now I turn 35…Good Gravy, I am getting old!! Maybe that’s why I am noticing all the little aches and pains more?

So, I really hope that the next two weeks goes by pretty smoothly…I am hoping that all the stupidity that has been happening decides to stop so that I don’t have to throttle anyone!! Yeah, unless you know me well, that will fly right over your head….sorry!! Anyways, I am kinda just writing to keep myself occupied for the next hour and 15 minutes. I don’t think I will actually blog that long…LOL!!

In fact…I may go ahead and just stop now….:) Well ya’ll have a good rest of your weekend, and spend it well!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

P.S. I love you

I watched that movie tonight. It made me really think. Think about what love truly is. Is it that first kiss? Is it the first time your eyes meet? Is it hearing that song on the radio and thinking about them? Is it catching a scent and thinking about them? Is it seeing a picture, and associating it with them? Is it hearing their name and feeling your heart flutter and your stomach knot? Yes….Yes….Yes!!!

Everyday, we expose ourselves to the love of our life in many ways. We hear, smell, taste, and feel their presence. I walk through my day, and when I hear his name, or a song that reminds me of him. Smell something that reminds me of him, it takes me to him. Maybe only mentally, and sometimes that is all I need. To know that he was there for me once. No matter what, we always will love someone, we just don’t get to experience the full effects. We don’t always get to share that time of being in someone’s arms, or that time of just being able to be with each other. We can share all the funtimes, the memories of laughter, and smiles. No regrets!! We can still go through life, knowing that what we shared, either together or secretly, we will always have. We can recall that feeling with a word, touch, scent or taste.

I remember the smell of his skin, clean and fresh. The taste of his lips, soft and sweet. The feel of his hands, soft and searching. I can hear the laughter in his voice and see the smile as it plays on his lips. I know that these are the things that I will hold onto, no matter what!! I hope that he can Say the Same!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty