Evening all.

Laying here in bed. Feeling anxious about my trip this time. This will be the second time I have ever been away from home for more than a week .  The first time was a road trip with the kids to Yellowstone. This time I leave Mom, the kids and my fiancé at home. I know everything will be fine. I know they will miss me. I know I will miss them. It’s all the unknowns.

I don’t know why this is any different for me from any other trip. Maybe it’s just the fact that it’s two whole weeks. I don’t mind being in New York. Yeah it’s a bit scary some times. But it’s a cool place to visit.

I am going to try and go to a few places over the weekend that I haven’t been able to visit the last few times.  Weather permitting I am going to try to go to Manhattan and see the sites. I am also going to try and go to Carlo’s Bakery

I think that just keeping busy this time will make the trip a bit easier

Well y’all wish me luck. I am off to bed, I gotta be up early!

Hugs and kisses,

Kitty

Evening all!

I hijacked Jay’s iPad again

I’m laying here in bed after a super long day, watching Say Yes.

Speaking of saying yes… I recently got engaged!

On October 22, 2011 my love asked me to marry him . He was super sweet and cute about it.

He took me to dinner at my favorite restaurant, Joe’s Crabshack. We ordered appetizers, and Jay being quick on his feet, reminded me to wash my hands before eating finger foods. I was like, ummm… Okay? So while I was in the restroom, unbeknownst to me, he asked the waiter for a favor. I came back to the table, and our appetizers were there. We enjoyed them, and sat there talking, as I looked around the restaurant. While I was being oblivious, he had moved himself into a better position in his chair.

Our waiter came over to the table and asked if everything was okay. Jay says, “Yeah, thanks dude.”. The waiter picks up the plates and then drops a fork on the floor. Jay knelt down to grab it, the waiter was like, “I can get that.”. I turn around and he has a ring in his hand. And asked me to marry him. I was stunned. I reached in and kissed him. Then said yes.

It was so sweet.

The date is set. October 27,2012. Now I am planning, and trying to figure it all out. I want this to be as special for my family as it will be for him and I.

My blog may morph over the next several months into a wedding planning update blog

I hope y’all stick around and enjoy the wild ride

Hugs and Kisses,
Kitty

Hello all!

I know, been a while. I am trying a post from the boyfriend’s iPad

I wanna talk about love tonight.

I actually love talking about love in all it’s facets. Seems to be a big topic here on the site.

I am 38 years old, and I have lived a wonderful life, hopefully with many more years to go. In this life I have had many experiences with love and falling in and out of love.

Love when it’s real is a fantastical, magical, incredible feeling! Sometimes just the idea of love is an amazing thing as well. I can say that I have experienced the multiple facets of love and I am learning even more about love and all the things it can truly feel like and what it can bring into your life.

When I was just a girl, I had the biggest crush on the boy across the street, his name was Tim and we were the best of friends. We would go crawdad fishing, and play cars in the driveway. He was my best friend, and I wanted him in my life forever, or so it seemed at the time. That was my first puppy love experience. I cried when he moved away. I thought my world was going to cave in all around me.

I swore never to love again! Yeah, well we know how that goes, right?

I made it through middle school without falling for anyone. I didn’t have another boyfriend until high school. I met a guy in my Home Ec class. He was super sweet and we went to the Military Ball together. We dated off and on for a few months. I wouldn’t call it love, but I liked him alot. We still keep in touch, and we talk occasionally.

Then I met my first love, it was love at first sight. I really wanted to date him, and he played cat and mouse with me for over two years. We shared our first kiss in the back of a skating rink. That’s when I knew it was love. We didn’t start dating until our junior year. Our senior year we got engaged. I saw myself with him…. Forever. It was love. We got married and had two beautiful kids. Sixteen years later.. We got divorced. We realized we were better as friends than as husband and wife.

About six years ago, I met someone, and I thought he was the greatest thing next to chocolate. He was funny and we actually had things in common. He helped me find myself again. I got back into my love of cars, and remembered who I used to be. He seemed like a nice guy. As I got closer to him as a friend, I got closer to him with my heart, and thought I was in love. I look back at it now, and yeah, I love him, but I love him in that… Your my best friend, and I dont want to lose that, kinda way. It took him to show that to me. I was in love with the situation that I was in. I would never change that for anything in the world! He is truly one of the people in my life that I can talk to about anything. Him and my best friend Nicole.

As I sit here tonight, I am going to tell you that I have found a different kind of love. I am in love with a man, who loves me back in a way, I haven’t been loved before. I don’t mean physically, get that dirty mind cleaned up. I mean emotionally. We have known each other for six years, and he sat in the background of my life. H was always there for me in little ways and we became friends. I always told myself, that I would never date him, I had personal reasons.

Y’all have seen my blogs about me and my honey, but I am going to try and break it down.

He brings something to me emotionally that I have never felt before. Like I said, I have been in love before, but this is different. I have never felt this way. He completes me, not to take a line from a movie, but he does. It’s like the missing piece to my puzzle. I didn’t know it until over the last few months, how much I loved him. He told me he loved me on our one year anniversary of being together, and it brought tears to my eyes. Every time he tells me he loves me first, it makes me feel so happy and I almost cry every time. Its a completely different type of love. Sitting here writing about it makes me want to tear up.

So, I know that people are going to read this, and I don’t want anyone to think that I didn’t love them, I just loved them differently, and didn’t know what the difference was until now.

We all love someone, and someone loves us. Sometimes the love is brotherly, sometimes friendly, and sometimes you fall in love and it’s magical. No matter what type of love it is, cherish it, hold onto it, and share it, you never know when you might lose it.

Here’s to happy people who are in love with the ones they love, and here’s to those that don’t have love yet, just wait, and when it happens you will know what it all means!

Hello all,

This past week has been a bit of a coaster ride for me.  I have been up and I have been down.

I broke down this last weekend and just cried.  I was feeling just all balled up.. couldn’t break free, and it seems like every time I turn around it’s something else.  School is coming up for the kids.. it’s a stretch anytime for me to make ends meet, and when school comes around, it’s harder.  The kids are growing and that means new school clothes, and well, it’s tight around here.  There is the fact that it seems like if I get a step ahead.. something happens.. Jay’s car is acting up, and we are dealing with that extra expense as well.  Again, it’s that balled up sensation.  I try to make sure everyone stays happy, it’s just really hard sometimes to keep everyone happy.

I cried yesterday, harder than I have in a while.  I have been trying for a promotion at work, and my boss told me yesterday I didn’t get it.  She told me that I knew the job, but that there were other people more qualified.  I don’t have the most perfect stats, I don’t have perfect attendance, so I don’t get the job.  Maybe next time.  I felt like my world caved in, and I feel kinda stupid about it, now.  I cried over a job.  People tell me it’s because I was passionate about the job, and that I truly wanted it, that’s why I cried.  Yes, I was passionate about the job, and I still am.  All I can do, is buckle down and just try harder.

On the other side of these emotions are the happy side.  I really do have an amazing family and boyfriend.  My Mom is amazing, she is always there for me, and yes I may not be the picture perfect daughter, but she still loves me no matter what!  My kids… well, they are kids.. and my mom was right.. it will come back to me threefold.. thanks Mom

Jay and I are doing well   I love this man, and I mean like totally 100% in love with him.  He spoils me rotten when he can, and he cares.  We have our moments, every couple does, but I don’t think I will trade him in, any time soon.

I hope that y’all have enjoyed the read

<3 Kitty

Well, good afternoon everyone!

I am home and it’s hot as hell outside. Guess it’s time to play catch up

The kids are a year older, they passed all their classes, and Andy was asked to take an Honor’s History class   Ezri is looking forward to being a 7th grader, wow, that makes me feel old to just say that!  Jay and I have been together for over a year, and he told me he loves me!  Makes me giggle every time I hear it

As for everything else.. well, I am trying for a promotion of sorts at work, and hoping that I get it.  Going back to New York in September, and looking forward to it as well.  Everything is super groovy here at home.

Well, I am hoping to get back into the routine of blogging regularly

Hope everyone has a great day!

<3 Kitty

Howdy from New York City all!

Been here since Sunday and I have been all over!  I got to visit the Hampton’s, it’s quite pretty up through there and the drive through wine country would have probably been a lot better if the vines were actually growing and green and plush.  Rode the ferry across to Shelter Island and then over to the other side of the Hampton’s.  It was a beautiful trip but long and tiring.

This trip hasn’t been quite as busy as the last trip, but I still didn’t get to go into Manhattan and see all the stuff I wanted to.  I don’t like to do things like that by myself

Missing my kiddos and my mom a lot.  Missing my honey quite a bit too.  I really can’t wait to get home..

Ezri’s birthday is Saturday and we are going to take her and a couple of friend to Putt-Putt on Sunday.. should be fun

I can’t believe how big the kids are getting.  I still feel quite young… even in my old age

Well, gonna wrap this up for the moment, my tummy is growling

Y’all have a wonderful week.. hope I can check in again soon

<3 Kitty

March is here.. and hopefully will be a bit less hectic than February was.

I had the opportunity to go to New York for work.  It was interesting being there this time.  The last time I was in New York was in the Summer of 1992.  This was no leisure trip.. that’s for sure.  I spent 80% of my time in a car driving all over the place.

While I was in New York.. my huney’s apartment flooded, and we came back to a huge mess.  We finally got him moved from his old place into a new apartment, and got all his stuff packed up safely.  He is staying here at my place until we can get him a bed.  All of his furniture was ruined.  It was terrible..

On a similar note.  Jay and I have been together for 8 months.  We talked about getting a house together, but that has been placed on hold.. for the moment.  I am extremely happy with my life right now.  I am completely spoiled and love it.

My mom and Andy are talking about going to Louisiana next week for Spring Break, and that means that Jay, Ezri and I are on our own.  I am considering a trip to the Zoo and then maybe a trip to Glenrose!  Fossil Rim Wildlife Park and maybe Dinosaur Valley

Well, I am off to bed.. didn’t realize it was almost 1130 O.o

Ya’ll have a good night!

<3 Kitty

I miss you!  It’s cold outside and icy and blah, and you are halfway across the country, just as cold and snowy.

This has been a rough week.  I said goodbye to my honey on Sunday morning.  Went home.. and did nothing.  Monday, I felt rushed all day, got the new car all inspected and what not with the dealership and picked it up.. just to go home and pack to come back to work.  Spent Monday night at the Marriott, came in and opened on Tuesday, spent Tuesday at the Hilton.  Came in today and looked around, Jay wasn’t here.  He is in New York til the 11th.  Working til 10 tonight, then spending the night in the Marriot.  I miss my house, my bed, my kids, and my boyfriend.  My mom sent me pictures of the kids playing in the ice and snow yesterday.  My baby-girl texted me tonight, and asked me.. How are you Mom?  My response.. Tired and missing home.  I wanna just cry, but I do this to show that I am willing to go all the way and put myself available for my job.  I love my job.  this week has been rough though.

I am cold.. and I am missing you.. my family, my house, my bed, my honey.

<3 Kitty

Howdy all!

Sitting here.. contemplating..

There is a lot on my plate at the moment.. and so many frustrations and choices.  I wish that I could just bundle them up and throw them away!

I have worries and concerns about everything around me.  From my family.. to my friends.. to my boyfriend.. It sucks to be such a worry wart sometimes!

I want to be the one!  I haven’t been this way in years!  I want him to want to be with me for the rest of his life.  There are so many things that can help or hinder this.  I just don’t know which way to turn with it.  I want him to love me as much as much as I love him.  I guess I just have to hang in there and see what happens.

My family is crazy right now!  So many things going on at home, so many things that have me stressed.  I try to just take it one day at a time.. but sometimes that’s hard.  Baby steps.. Baby steps..

Well, I guess that is it for the night.. I hope you all have a good one!

<3 Kitty

Evening all..

I am here at my boyfriends house..  We had a great night!  Dinner.. Movies.. Shopping..

Been a very busy couple of weeks.. Got through Christmas and the New Year without to much stress.. I did get a midnight kiss on New Year’s Eve

It really has been a kind of whirlwind, but a somewhat enjoyable one   Hope that everyone has a great rest of your weekend.  I will hopefully be posting up more, now that I have Internet back at home

Hugs and kisses,

Kitty