I sat here this morning.. Dwelling on my past.. my present.. and my future.

I get in these moods.. and my brain overworks itself.  I got to thinking about everyone that has been in.. is in.. or may be in my life, and wondered…

Do I still cross your mind?

Do you pick up the phone and look at it and wonder if you should call?

Do you look at a picture and think of me?

Do you see something in the window of a store, or a car driving down the road, and think of me?

Do you think back to late night calls and wish you were there again?

Do you listen to me now, and wish I was right there?

Will you be that person in my future that I hold and talk to about my day?

Will you be the one I live out the rest of my life with?

Will I be that person you want me to be?

Yes, this is what happens when I have to much time on my hands to think.  I wonder if I could have done things differently in the past to make it all work.  I wonder why someone I never really ‘knew’ still crosses my mind and makes me think of them?  What kills me, it that if I knew they were thinking of me.. I don’t know how that would really make me feel.  My mind and emotions always get the best of me.  I think it stems from the dreams I had this weekend.  He was there.. but it wasn’t him.  It was different.. there was danger involved and I knew it, and I knew I was losing him.  But, I haven’t talked to him or anything in over a month, why would he cross my mind now?  There wasn’t anything there, before.. and not now.  So, why the weird dreams?  Maybe my subconscience is just eating at me, maybe my heart is playing games with my mind, because it knows that someone else is trying to take that place, and that this someone has alot of my attention.

I don’t know.  I wish I did.  I guess I will just keep walking away from my past, through my present, and into my future, hoping for the best.

Happy Reading!

<3 Kitty