Evening ya’ll!

Been a long day.  Been a long week, and it’s only Tuesday.  I woke up this morning thinking it was Wednesday.. boy was I disappointed to discover it was Tuesday.  I made it through the day though

Been thinking a lot.  Thinking about my relationship, thinking about my family, and thinking about people in my life.  What’s weird, are the thoughts I am having…  I won’t go into details.. I may have to privately write that out.  I am just kinda confused about some things.. and about what I thought was supposed to happen.  We have this picture or idea in our heads about how things are supposed to happen, and when it doesn’t happen like that.. well, it makes a person wonder if their perceptions were misconstrued and discombobulated.  Again, it would be difficult to go into here, but I think it’s almost time for my head to have a talk with my heart, and for them to come to a unified decision and conclusion without being persuaded otherwise.

I am trying.  Trying hard.  I feel like it’s just not enough.  I have people who accuse me of doing something.. that I didn’t.  I am not a cheater, liar, or thief.  I think cheating is one of the worst things to do to a person, next to murder and abuse.  Cheating breaks down trust and breaks down hope, faith and love.  It only brings heartache, and don’t think that it happens and the other person doesn’t know about it.  Lieing.. it’s stupid to do it.  All lieing does is lead to more lies, which leads to someone getting caught and hurt.  Why would you do it?  Thief?  Never.  The only thing I can ever be accused of stealing is someone’s heart… and that hasn’t happened in a while.  So, where did this come from?  Well, being called a liar is something that irks me, just a bit.  If you ask me a question, and then take the answer out of context, then that isn’t lieing, that is you not using your communication skills.  If you ask a question and don’t get the response you wanted, don’t twist the words and throw them back at me.  For those that think that just because I have a boyfriend that lives out-of-state, that I can still go out with you.. You are wrong!  Again, I don’t cheat.. not in my forte.  It hurts the people who are involved, directly or indirectly.

I really should be going to bed now.  I have to be up in about 6 hours.  Wednesday is here now.  So, we can say we are half way through the work week.  Makes for an interesting day today, I am sure.

So, to wrap this up.  I need to think more about whats going on in here (points to head then heart) and make sure I don’t give anyone a reason to think that I would lie to them, cheat or any other of those bad things.  So, as my eyes begin to droop, I will bid you goodnight!

<3 Kitty