Hey readers!

As you all know I stepped into a relationship a week ago.  Yes, it’s a long distance relationship, and yes, it’s tough.  That’s not the part that has me all confused.  The part that has me all confused, is the fact that he can make me feel the way I feel, from so very far away.  We talk everyday, and we text everyday, and we chat online in the evenings.

What has me so baffled is the fact that, when we aren’t chatting, texting or talking to each other, I feel kinda empty inside.  I don’t get this.  We haven’t met yet, and we haven’t even held hands or kissed, and yet I miss him so much it almost hurts.  I am very confused by this, baffled even…

I know I am not in love, this isn’t the same thing.  That could change when we finally do get the chance to be near each other….or we could end up hating each other.  I think that scares me just a little.  At the moment though, I want nothing more than to hear his voice, and his laugh, and to hear him call me ‘love’ and talk cute.  Yeah, I turn into a complete 15yo when we talk.  He brings out this side of me, I haven’t seen in a long time.  I am happy, but confused and sad and excited and emotional all at the same time.  I have this insatiable urge to be in his arms, and I have a feeling that this will only get worse after meeting.  Then what do I do?

I guess, as we grow in this relationship, I will become a little less confused and bewildered.  Until then, happy reading!