I hear the sound of his voice in my head, and I can’t get over the way it still makes me feel.  I search back through the memories, and still feel the same way I did, before they were memories.  I hear a song and his lips come to mind, and I feel that soft touch.  I see a flash of color that reminds me of his eyes and my heart melts.  I feel the rush of his memories running through my mind at every juncture of my life, and I rejoice in the way it makes me feel.

Is it sad, that one person can excite all of those things in me.  I am amazed that my mind and body react so readily to a thought, a sight, a sound and even just a memory.  Is it just that the mind lingers over the things we liked the most, and moves the bad things out?

I drive to work, 30 minutes, every morning.  In that time, I will see or hear something that brings him into my mind.  What can I do?  I like him there, but boy, does he interfere at some of the worst times imaginable.  So, I am coming to terms with the fact that this memory will always be there.  I will never be rid of it.  I just need to learn how to adjust and work my way around the memory and thoughts and rush of emotion, when I see, hear or feel that rush.

I sit here, and I think and I giggle, because I know.  He will just shake his head and wonder what I was thinking.  The answer to that is… I was thinking about him, always   Amazing how someone can affect someone else so deeply.