Archive for September, 2009

Okay….sooo I am as nervous as a long tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs O.o

I don’t know what has gotten into me…It’s insanity!!! 

I am going on a date Saturday…a real date..I haven’t been on a real date in about 2 years…  I think it was…June 2 years ago…or December two years ago..I don’t remember…you know the whole go out and then get kissed kinda date.  I mean yeah I have gone out with guys and hung out…but not a real “date”…

So…I am nervous…he has told me to leave everything up to him..he will plan everything out.  I am meeting him someplace…since we haven’t physically meet..we have only talked on the phone and through IM and Skype.  Sooo….I think that is why I am sooo nervous…I think if we had met through a friend or work…or even at the store or whatever…I wouldn’t be as nervous. 

Sooo…I should be a complete wreck by this weekend…

I do have to say…he has intrigued me…alot…He makes me laugh…and smile…and is silly and sweet…sooo I guess we shall see what happens

Updates will go out on Sunday some time

Originally posted June 26, 2007 on DeviantArt

His lips are like a morning dewed rose, soft and beautiful.
Hands that are worked and yet velvet to the touch.
He is strong, yet gentle.
He is hard, yet soft.
He hides behind a mask of indifference, and shows his true colors only when he thinks no one is looking.
He is confident in everything he does.
He is driven in all that he does.
He is everywhere and nowhere all at once.
He is a thought, a dream, a presence, a myth, a legend….
Who is he?
Let’s wait and see….

Originally posted June 28, 2007 on DeviantArt

I wait here for the call that will possibly set me free.

I wait here for the touch that tells me what I need.

I wait here for the voice to tell me that I am truly there.

I wait here for the sound of his whisper in my ear.

I wait here for the feel of his body against mine.

I wait here for the chance to see it all.

I wait here for the ability to make it real.

I wait here for the end, and knowing it isn’t truly over.

I wait here for the beginning and realize I have passed it by.

Why do I wait?

Why do I wonder?

When will I know?

When will I hear?

When will I feel?

When will it be real?

When will it become the end of the beginning?

When will it become the beginning of the end?

I will know when I feel his touch, taste his skin, feel his skin, and hear his whispers.

I will know when to begin and when to end.

I will know why, how, when, and where.

Now the question is…..

Will he?

Originally posted on July 1, 2007 on DeviantArt

It starts with a cold drop

It stings your skin, and warms to your touch

Then the second one falls and touches your skin

Warming instantly

The rain begins to fall, soft and slow

He spots your grin, returns it tenfold

He knows

He pulls you close

You look up to the summer sky

Relishing the moment, as the sky opens up and pours down

He brings his hand up and guides you to him

Lips touch

Tongues entangle

Raindrops run down your arms

No longer stinging, but melting with his touch

His wet kisses

Originally posted July 3, 2007 on DeviantArt

Hot and Cold

Steam on the windows

Giggle at your lover’s touch

Hot and Cold

Steam on the windows

Draw your lover close to you

Hot and Cold

Steam on the Windows

Bring your lover home to you

Hot and Cold

Steam on the Windows

Wipe away the moisture, cleanse your soul, find your playground and clear away the doubt.

Originally posted August 23, 2007 on DeviantArt

What does it take….

To know me…

To feel me…

To want me….

To see me…

To like me….

To love me….

What does it take…..

To know you…

To feel you…

To want you…

To see you….

To like you….

To love you…

What does it take…

To be us…

To feel us…

To see us…

To like us…

To love us….

To want us….

What does it take….

When you find out….let me know….

Originally posted October 11, 2007 on DeviantArt

I sit alone and I sigh
I sit alone and I weep
I sit alone and I smile
I sit alone and I mourn
I sit alone and I wonder
I sit alone and I know
I sit alone and I feel
I sit alone and I cry

I stand here and I wonder
I stand here and I feel
I stand here and I love
I stand here and I need
I stand here and I want
I stand here and I lust
I stand here and I trust
I stand here and I am alone

Walk with me
Talk with me
Stand with me
Sit with me
Cry with me
Need with me
Love with me
Trust with me

Don’t leave me alone to cry, wonder and want
Don’t let me walk away
Don’t let me….
Don’t let me….

Goodbye

Originally posted October 16, 2007 on DeviantArt

I am trying to find me
Where have I gone
Where have I been
Will I come back
Will I be me again
Will I be someone I need to be
Will I be someone I want to be

I am trying to find me
I know that I am here somewhere
Will you help
Will you still be there when I find me
Will you still be someone I can go to
Will I be able to find you

I am trying to find me
I am looking for you
You are looking for me
We are searching together for all the same reasons
We are searching for each other

I am trying to find me
You are trying to find you
We are trying to find us

I am trying to find me…will you help?

Originally posted November 17, 2007 on DeviantArt

Boredom=Insanity

When you have nothing to do, and nowhere to go,
Insanity reigns!!

When you have no one to talk to, no one to turn to,
Insanity reigns!!

When you have nothing to do, you get creative…
Take a walk
Find a bug
Stretch out
Read a book
Listen to the same song over and over
Then the insanity creeps up.

When you have nowhere to go…
You go to the park
You walk around in endless circles
You run out in front of traffic
You watch nothing and see something

When you have no one to talk to…
You talk to your animals
You talk to your computer
You talk to the plants
You talk to yourself

When you have no one to turn to…
You turn to no one
You stop talking to anyone
You walk away from everything

Boredom=Insanity
Don’t let it wrap us up in the white coat of Boredom, break free, do something, get creative, live, love and learn!!

Originally posted January 27, 2008 on DeviantArt

I froze for an instant

I got caught up and for a moment, there was a small moment of bliss

I let go and watched it walk away

I gave up

It was soft and warm and then cold and hard

Why can’t it be

Why can’t I let it

Why is it always there

It lingers in the back of my mind and rests on my lips

If only I could make it real

If only I could just let it be

I froze at the feeling

I froze at the touch

I froze at the look

I froze…and it was good for just a split second

I froze and gave it up

Cold and ruthless in the eyes

Soft and warm in the mouth

Heavenly in the hands

Strength in the mind

Hard in the heart

I was frozen for a split second……

It was almost heavenly