Archive for June, 2009

Good evening ya’ll…well I have been sitting around the past couple of weeks….and well, trying to get my mind off of love, and romance and all that hissy prissy ooshy gooshy stuff.  To no success…

So, I sit here tonight and I ponder one thing that I said this evening, that made me go…hmmmm…

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Just imagine it……

(insert Wayne’s World transition sound here)

You are a chicken.  You have it sooo good, you hang out on the farm, get fed all the grain you can eat.  You love it there, and you and all your little hen and chicken friends sit around and peck at the ground, and just cluck about all the gossip in the farm.  How Bessie the cow is not producing milk and the farmer is talking about selling her.  To Fred the dog, and how his sniffer is going bad and can’t track the foxes like he used to.

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We sat around the small breakfast table, eating chocolate chip cookies and drinking a glass of coke.  Josh sat with his back toward the wall, and with me to his right.  Shelly kept glancing at me sideways and smiling a sneaky grin.  We talked about what we had planned for the afternoon, and what vehicle we would take down to the river.  Johnny offered up his Jeep, and I offered up my truck, since we wouldn’t have room in the Jeep for all six of us, tubes, drinks and camping gear, in the event we decided to stay at the river that night.

After each of us eating a half dozen of Molly’s Chocolate Chip cookies, we all wandered back outside, the basset hounds following close behind.  Shelly wanted to ride with me, and asked Josh if he minded riding with the guys.  He had no problem with it, and climbed into the back of the Jeep.  Johnny hollered, “Better hold on tight, it gets a little rough” and laughing all the while.

Josh grinned over his shoulder at me, and I smiled back.  Shelly and I finished packing up the truck, climbed in, rolled down the windows and turned up the radio.  Dierks Bentley blasted from the speakers as we headed off to a well worn path behind the house.  We bounced through mud holes, and jostled ourselves over huge bumps in the ‘road’, and about an hour later came to a clearing with an old fire pit, and flat well packed land.  As we came to a stop we could hear the rush of the river not to far away.  The sounds of the woody area rushed in at you, birds singing, bugs buzzing, and squirrels and other critters chittering.  I took a deep breath, and just started laughing.  Everyone stopped and looked at me.

“What?” I asked.

“Why are you laughing?” Josh said.

“Can’t a girl just laugh in the middle of a clearing in the woods?”

“Sure you can, as long as you’re not laughing at me.”  He flashed that disarming smile at me, I almost walked up to him and kissed him.  Right there.

“Get to work unpacking the truck.” I ordered as I smiled devilishly at him.

We all unloaded the truck, started a small fire in the fire pit, set up the tents, just in case.  Grabbed a cold soda out of the cooler, grabbed our tubes, and walked down to the river.  The sound of the river flowing was an instant relaxer for me.  It was such a soothing sound, and the feel of the water against my skin as I stepped in, was refreshingly shocking.  Josh followed close behind me, watching everything I did, to make sure he did it all the same way.  I plopped myself into my tube, close to the bank, in the shallow water, and pushed off to the center of the river.  Josh, Shelly and her brothers followed close after.  We floated lazily down the river, after a while, we all joined up in a chain.  I was in the lead, Josh behind me, Shelly behind him, and her three brothers fighting behind her.  we all just floated along, chit chatting and enjoying the sun.  After floating for about two hours, we came to another clearing, with an inlet of water that was deeper than the rest of the water.  I hopped out of my tube, into the deep water and swam to shore, everyone following suit behind me.  I casually tossed my tube up on the bank, and then swam back out to the calmer water.  The guys threw their shirts up on the bank, and I tossed my tank top up there.  Josh swam over to me, and splashed me playfully.  We all relaxed as we swam around, and splashed each other.

I, thinking I was being rather sneaky, swam up behind Josh and tried to dunk him under water.  He spun around and pulled me in close to him, pinning my arms to my side.  There we were, face to face, nothing between us but my lime green bikini top, and a pair of cut-offs.  I could feel his heart beating in his chest.  I could see my reflection in his eyes.  I could feel the warmth emanating from every part of him.  Our lips were barely an inch away from each other.

“I think I want to kiss you.”  He whispered, but it seemed so loud in my ears.

“I think I want you to kiss me.” I whispered back.

Everything around me seemed to go silent in the span of an second.  The air stopped moving, all I could hear was his soft breathing, and the beat of my heart in my ears.  He leaned in that last little inch and kissed me.  It felt like fire under my skin at the feel of his lips on mine.  It seemed like the world tilted and stopped.  What seemed like forever later, we both came up for air.  All my senses rushed back to me.  I could feel the warmth of both of our bodies, the smell of the trees and flowers, the sound of birds, bees and critters.

That is where it all really began, right there in that little pool of water.  My heart skipped a beat, my head grew light, and my eyes saw nothing but Josh.  The rest of the day and night were a blur.  I was so caught up in everything that was Josh, it seemed like my feet never touched the ground.

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I finished my shower, and dried off, and ran a brush through my wet hair.  Looked at myself in the mirror.  I saw a beautiful girl with a confused heart and a beaten soul.  Where do I go from here.  Guess we will see….

More to come….

Afternoon ya’ll!!

I am hanging out…in a pretty decent mood

I sooo love it, when people you think about contact you out of the blue!!  I had a friend from a few years ago look me up on Facebook…Yay!!  I used to hang with her all the time, and I would go over to her place and spend the weekend just chilling with her and her kitties..aww I miss them.  I need to get over there and see them all again.

Well, I am gonna go chill for a while and do some more work here at work…go figure..actually working at work…whodathunkit?

Have a great one!!!

So, you get two blog posts tonight…

*Insert big sigh here*

So, my iTunes are killing me tonight…Makes me think about all the stupid stuff…ya know

And well things cross my mind…and I can’t get my brain to shut down…and I end up sleeping like crap…so I figured if I just throw it out here…you know..my ‘therapy session’ so to speak..

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Evening readers….

I have had the rough start of a week.  I guess all I can really do is move on and just get past it…right?

So, I have to deal with my son’s school tomorrow, I am hoping that all goes well.  I am pretty stressed out…I have extra income going out, and I am really ready for that to move on.  I am ready for alot of things…most of them out of my reach.

I sit here, and I listen to my iTunes and I wonder….I wonder about it all…

Enough of that…I know..I need new subjects.  Why don’t you guys give me something new to talk about?  I could use some suggestions…I think I need to be over in my stories working on my latest…just no inspiration…

Between me apparently being someone who always needs to be wanted…to being the bitchy person I am lately…to the concerned mom in me…to the friend that wants to be there…I just can’t find that inspiration lately.

Oh well, I guess I am gonna cut this one short.  Gonna go try and find something interesting to do…

See ya’ll later…