Evening all!

Well this weekend just kinda flew by…

I took Gracy, my blazer, up Friday after work and washed her.  I then came home and detailed her and made her all shiny and pretty.  She looks great!  Then I got on the computer and played games and chatted with a friend or two.  Saturday…well was spent in front of the computer for most of the day.  It’s all good though.

Today was a fulfilling day.  I went with a friend and we went dress shopping for the wedding I am going to be in come September.  She found a really beautiful wedding dress, and I found the style bridesmaid dress I want.  I also discovered that I have boobs and a waist *eek*…LOL  It actually made me feel pretty

The only thing about all the shopping for dresses…it made me think.  When I got married, I didn’t have a big wedding like I wanted.  It was thrown together in two weeks.  He told me he wanted to marry me..right then…I thought it was the *cough* romantic side of him….So, we threw a wedding together in two weeks. I got married in jeans, boots and a long sleeve button up.  I wanted a wedding…well…I found out about 5 years ago…the reason we got married so quickly was because his granny threatened to remove him from her will…because we ‘were living in sin’.

So, I was sitting there today, and I was thinking.  If I ever do find the perfect guy, the one who rings my bell, and wants me to marry him…will I go through with it.  Knowing that divorce is a pain in the ass?  Will I do it big?  All the bells and whistles?  It’s what I have always wanted…  Or will I just ‘live in sin’ for the rest of my life with this man that I am supposed to find and live the rest of my life for…. Then I sit here and I think…If I go through all the hassle and stress for a huge wedding one of the days in the not so near future, and it all ends in heartbreak…was it any better than my rushed two week thrown together wedding?  *insert huge dramatic sigh here*

I really just don’t know anymore.  You all know that I love someone, we all know what good that does me..LOL.  The question is…is there someone out there that can tear my hopes and dreams and heart away from him.  Being single, I judge every man I meet.  I ask myself…is this someone that might tear me away from the one that I love right now?  Is this someone that I can see myself with?  Is this someone that I want to be with.  So…it’s not every man I meet that I judge like that…just the ones that catch my eye   Suffice it to say…I still only dream about one man…I still only have one man that runs willy nilly through my mind…I still only want to be with one man…

I think that if that person came up to me, and told me he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me…I would say yes.  I would pack up every stitch of everything that I own…and go.  I didn’t realize all this…til I was sitting there, and watching my friend put on her perfect dress, and smile, and her know that the one she is marrying, is the one she would do that for.  Love is great when it’s great!!  Love sux when it isn’t great.  It amazes me, the things that come to mind..with all the simple things that you can do in life.

So, yeah…Looking at wedding dresses and bride’s maid dresses, brought me back to that place.  It’s not a bad place..but it’s not a place I want to dwell on.

I know that one day…my ‘prince’ will come along, and ride up in his fast car (because that’s a plus) and carry me off into the sunset…kiddos and all…

So, now that I am thouroughly thinking about the one thing I can’t have…I guess I will scoot on off to bed..

Have a good night…see ya!