So, this has been a crazy week. I am tired, but not sleepy. I am stressed, but nothing I can’t handle or deal with, as I normally do. I am frustrated, but hey what’s new? You guys and gals, that read these, have seen the many sides of me, and the many moods. I have gone from angry to happy to sad to forgotten. I range through all the emotions. Lately, I am a little confused at how I feel. The normal feelings are there, but they are intermixed with this other feeling, I can’t quite identify. It’s a little bit happy and optomistic, and yet estranged and lacking in exuberance. Could it be acceptance? Could it be full blown ‘whatever’ syndrome? I haven’t been in a really sad place in a while. I have been up here *raises hand up to eye level* and it seems to be sticking. many of my friends would look at me, and ask…are you on drugs??

No, I am not. I am in some weird transitional place. I haven’t quite figured it out. So, I have tried to break it all down. I am still in love, and I still miss him something fierce, even though I talk to him everyday, just about. I have a great job, a crazy family, wonderful friends…so, that is all normal…wow…normal…what is that? I mean don’t get me wrong…it ain’t all puppies and kittens in my life. Occasionally Hell desides to open up and reak a little havok on my life. Whats so weird lately…is I don’t care. Let Hell hath its fury…I am okay with that. I have been to the best parts of life over the past few months, and I can accept just about anything you throw at me. It really is all about emotions and feelings and mental strength.

I think I am at that point that I can handle anything that he can say to me. I think I have brought myself to this point. Maybe this is my way of accepting whatever he throws at me…and know that no matter what, we will always be friends. Am I finally in my comfy place of love and acceptance. Is that this strange feeling that has come over me? Maybe? Then again….

Thinking about it..kinda makes me nervous…LOL..Maybe I am not ready, maybe I am just in a comfort zone…Who the Hell knows…LOL

Well, I really need to wrap this up and head to bed….gotta be up early.

Ya’ll have a wonderful night/day