Evening ya’ll

Just sitting here, listening to Sugarland “What I’d Give”, and thinking about… Mmmm

I am sooo in a strange place today.  I feel so…I don’t know…

My mind has been on him lately…alot…I think that’s why I ain’t sleeping…cuz my mind is wandering back… I think about it all, and I just have to sigh… Love makes us do some things that sometimes, we just look back on, and say…Wow…can I do that again..

It’s no secret that I am in love… if you haven’t noticed you are BLIND!  LMAO… It amazes me, that I am right in that place that I have been fighting to not be in, and yet I am quite happy and content right here in the love zone.  It’s not your typical love…nope…but it’s a great feeling when I sit there, and I think about one simple little thing, and it can brighten my day more than anyone can imagine.  I look over at my shelf at work and look at the Geode, and the little animals, and I think back to vacation…

I think this is the craziest feeling I have ever had about someone.  I am in love…but it’s sooo different.  It’s not like it was with me and my ex…This is completely different.  He makes me soo nervous…and I am usually pretty confident around guys.  I get around him, and I want to just tell him everything that I am feeling… but I can’t…he has this thing about him.  I look at him, and I get all ‘school girly’ LMAO…that is the only way to describe it.  I get all shy, and embarrassed, I feel like if I say anything, it will come out all wrong and stupid..

This music is bringing out some craziness…  I want nothing more right now, than to be there beside him…this song in the background…it says it all…  Every bit of it… I feel drunk tonight…and I haven’t had anything but tea and coke all day.  I don’t know how to explain this…I am in a weird, satisfied, filling place…I just need one more ingredient… (sighs)….

When I come down off this natural high, and come to that crashing conclusion…it’s gonna hurt…but that’s ok…It has been well worth the crazy ride!!  From the first kiss, to the last touch…Every bit of it, has been soo incredible.  The power he could have over me, is overwhelming… Makes me wonder…

Okay…so I think you guys have had enough of my drooling and thinking and just down right making a big ole huge mental mess…ask me if I will sleep tonight…I might…but I think it will be quite restless. and well…thought inducing and provoking.

So I bid you all a good night…sleep well, and dream with your eyes wide open and your thoughts close to you

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty