So…this week has been testy and trying…

Started off in a bad way….and just kinda kept riding that train of bad mood…I dealt with alot of stress this weekend…slept like crap…and well…just in a pissy mood.  I know that I came off pissy to quite a few people.  I am not going to apologize for it either.  Some of it was pent up and needed to be put out there… I am tired of being the one who just sloughs it all off, and the “it will fix itself’ girl.  The one who just stands around and doesn’t get mad or angry.

I have feelings and emotions…believe it or not…some of them are angry ones….

Here I go again…justifying my feelings…why?

Well, because it is deeply set into me, not to be the bad guy..err girl in this case.  So, I justify.  I put up with it…and deal…and try to be the good girl, and make it all better….Normally…

This time has been different…I am just tired of being walked on.  I know that people apologize and try to make it all better…but I just feel like I am there as a rug…feel free to walk all over me…   I don’t want to be that person…  I guess it stems from doing it forever…

I don’t know…sometimes I just wonder…what is it that makes it all worth it.  Why do I put myself in that position to get walked on?  Why do I put myself into those places that I can’t get out of myself?

I am being Uber hard on myself tonight.  I haven’t slept much…and it’s quite evident with the circles under my eyes…  Well, speaking of sleep…it’s almost midnight…I need to head to bed…

I hope this next week is a little better…

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty