Archive for February, 2009

It’s all in the heart, ya know?

We love with it.

We hate with it.

We hope with it.

We learn with it.

Is there anything we can’t do with it?

Is there anything we can do without it?

It’s in the heart.

All our hopes, dreams, realities and despair.

It’s in the heart.

We follow it…

To the good..

To the bad…

It leads us, whether it is to our goals or off the beaten path…

It’s in the heart.

Do you choose to follow it?

Do you choose to abandon it?

Do you live for it?

Do you die for it?

Do you do all you can to make it all you want?

It’s in the heart.

I live, breathe, hope, love, learn, and dream…from the heart.

I share it openly, and it comes back bruised and broken…

I give it willingly, and it comes back shattered..

It gets stolen in the moment of unexpectedness…and I leave it in the care of the one who stole it.

How will it come back to me this time….

Only time will tell…and it’s in the heart…

Don’t you just love the people with the ‘Holier than though’ attitude? They take this attitude and jsut shove it at you. They take this attitude and rub you the wrong way with it. That irks me! You are not superior to me. The only thing in this world superior to me is God!

Please don’t try to patronize me. Please don’t try to tell me you are just doing your job. Please don’t sit there and be all ‘superior’ with me, then turn around and act like it’s a joke.

I really am worked up about this, and I apologize, but it is very frustrating when people push it at you. It’s coming from everywhere, and I hate it. We are equals, all of us! No one of us is better than the other. No one of us is more powerful than the other. It is about equality.

I apologize ya’ll. This is a rant, and it is over for the moment. I wish that I could go into greater detail, but I can’t.

See ya’ll later!

Kitty

I sat there, just a little nervous. What in the nine hells was this guy thinking? Just randomly walk up to someone and offer to hang out? Just a little weird in my book.

“So,” he said, “I don’t see any groceries melting out here in the back of your truck. Why are you here?” He looked at me with his heart stopping smile.

“Well, I came to get a new pair of flip flops and a new bathing suit. Mine had an accident at the river last weekend.” I blushed.

“Your suit had an accident at the river? How does one’s suit have an accident?” Again the smile.

I looked away still a soft shade of pink, “Well, when one is floating down the river in an open bottomed inner tube and the water gets a little shallow and the rocks are a little rough…One tends to wear the ass out of her suit…therefore getting a hole and mooning everyone on the way out of the river.” I was scarlet by the time I finished. Why in the world was I telling this to some random guy I met in the parking lot of a Wal-Mart?

“Really now?” He was suppressing a laugh, I could tell. “So, did you find what you were looking for?”

“Not really, I was getting fed up with their selection and was just considering cutoffs and my bikini top for the next outing. The boys would get a kick out of that.” I smiled back.

“So, you have a boyfriend?” He asked, and I was thinking, boy does he have balls.

“Actually, no. I have a group of friends I hang with every other weekend. We go to the river, and hangout, be lazy, enjoy the sun. You know…that kind of stuff. I usually get the truck dirty playing in the mud and work my hiney off trying to get it all clean for work on Monday.”

He looked at me, and there was something in his eyes. I couldn’t quite place it. “Wow, tubing and mudding. Interesting.”

My cell phone rang, and I answered, not even looking at the caller id. “Hello. Yes it is. Well, then why have I been sitting here, if you’re just going to take the info over the phone. Yes. It’s a 1987 Chevy Truck. Blue and Grey two tone. Yes a 6 inch scratch along the back bumper. No, no dents. Yes. Yes. Yes. Thank you, goodbye.” I jumped up off the tailgate, and stomped around, spitting every cuss word I could think of, out of my mouth. “Great I spent two hours here, and missed the river trip. Damnit!”

Josh watched this, and just sat there on the tailgate of the truck. “You know, we could always hang out, if you wanted.”

I stopped my tirade and just gawked at him.

(more to come)

I walked through the door and walked out of his life. It was harder than I thought it would be. We came from different worlds..not literally. He was high class, all money and power. I was not, it was all about my life and my career. It’s a strange story the way we met…

I sat there staring at the scratch in my bumper. Damnit! Can’t people just watch where they are going? It’s not like I wasn’t parked perfectly between the white lines, the back of my car was not outside the parking space. How could anyone hit my big old Chevy truck. Not like it was hard to miss. No note!! Nothing!! Damnit!

I grabbed my cell phone out of my back pocket and proceeded to dial 9-1-1. An operator picked up and I told her that I was in the Wal-mart parking lot and that someone hit my car and ran. Could I possibly get a police report, so that I could take it to my insurance company. She said she would send the call over to dispatch, but that it could be a while, just to sit tight. I sighed and lowered the tailgate on the truck, told the operator I wasn’t going anywhere. I lay back and looked up at the clear blue sky, an occasional cloud would blow by, it was a typical summer day in Texas. Hot as Hell and no rain in sight. I was glad that I made the decision for shorts and a white tank top for my shopping trip. My flip flops dangling from my feet as I swung them back and forth. Since I was going to be here a while, I sat up and leaned through the sliding rear window and grabbed my beat up copy of some cheesy romance. Sat back down on my toolbox and leaned against the back of the truck cab. I proceeded to read the romance with the all the enthusiasm I could muster. Cars came and went around me, but no one asked any questions of me. That’s when I heard it. The purr of a high performance engine, with the tiniest bit of a whistle from a turbo. I looked over to see a screaming Yellow Porsche 911GT pull in beside my beat up old 87 Chevy. My first thought was ‘Damn that sounds nice’…my second thought was ‘ Why in the hell is someone in a Porsche at Wal-Mart???’

The door opened and the driver was cautious not to hit my truck, they prolly didn’t want Chevy cooties or some nonsense like that. Then he stepped out. He had sandy blonde hair, with a tint of natural red highlights, and the prettiest blue eyes I think I have ever seen. He was dressed casual in a pair of jeans that hugged his legs without being to tight, and a blue and white polo. He looked up at me on the toolbox of the truck with a smutty romance in my hand and a look of utter surprise on my face. I blushed and turned away, shoving the book back through the sliding window to the cab.

“Good Afternoon ma’am.” He said in a southern drawl, with a smile to make your toes curl.

“Afternoon.” I said back quietly. He walked toward the doors of Wal-mart, and I still sat there stunned, not sure what to think. Still a little baffled. I shook myself out of the contorted confusion that my brain had slumped into, and leaned my head back against the cab, and proceeded to watch the clouds again. I glanced every so often to the Porsche on my left.

I was still sitting there about a half hour later, my head still laying back on the cab of the truck, my eyes closed, and the sun warm on my body. I heard the soft steps on the pavement, and then a snicker of a laugh. I opened one eye and raised my head off the cab. He was standing there at the tailgate of my truck with a smug smile on his face.

“Can I help you?” I asked lazily.

“I was wondering the same thing, do you need a ride someplace, or something?” He gestured at me and then the truck and then his Porsche.

“Nope, just waiting for a cruiser to show up, some ass backed into my truck, I need a police report for my insurance.” I shrugged at him.

“Oh.” He looked truly perplexed. “How long until the police officer gets here?”

“Ummm, I don’t know, this isn’t exactly a high priority thing. Could be two or three hours.” I added with a sigh, and layed my head back on the cab of the truck.

“Do you mind if I stick around?” He asked quietly.

My stomach dropped and my heart almost stopped. What in the name of all things good was he doing? I sat there for a second, and thought it through. “Sure, why not? I mean you can just go through hell right along with me. It’s only about one hundred degrees out here, and you are in jeans. Should be all types of comfortable for you to hang out in the back of an old beater like mine, when you have that nice little turbo sitting right there.” I smiled and laughed.

He looked at me with this look of wonder on his face. He then proceeded to take his jeans off right there, I covered my eyes and tried to scramble through the little sliding glass window, as he started laughing. I looked up, and he was standing there in a pair of blue swim trunks. I shot him a disapproving glare, and he laughed harder.

“I was on my way to a really dull and boring party at the lake, and I was stopping here for a cooler and some water and ice.” He motioned down to the pavement. I stood up and walked to the end of the tailgate, and looked down to see a cooler and some bottled water. I was about to turn back and head to the front of the truck bed, I swiveled, my flip flop caught and I lost my balance. Falling head over heels off the back of the tailgate. He caught me before I hit the ground, and set me down on my feet. I stepped back quickly, mumbled a thank you and sat down on the tail gate.

“Not often I have girls falling for me this quickly.” He showed me a very confident smile and threw a wink my way. I proceeded to roll my eyes. Making a gagging motion with my finger. He laughed at me, and sat down on the tailgate beside me. “My name is Josh, what’s yours?” He held out his hand.

“Jesse, nice to meet you, and thanks for saving my skull.” I shook his hand and looked away quickly. His hands were soft as silk.

(more to come keep reading)

Howdy all!!

Well I made it through another Valentine’s Day….single…again….

So…what did I do? You may be asking yoursefl…well…

I got up early, and tried to get the kids moving..they were off to their Dad’s for the weekend. I got went and dropped them off on Saturday morning, then went and got Gracy’s (my blazer) new plates. Then off for a car wash play date!! I met up with a couple of friends and we washed and then did a quick detail of our cars. Then off to Grapevine for the Club meet. After the meet, some of us girls piled into my blazer and the boys piled into the Tahoe…and we went to the Dallas AutoRama. I had never been before. It was amazing how the cars that were there…sparkled like NEW!! It is great to see people that love their cars sooo much! Saw a couple of my dream cars. One was a First Gen camaro…Red/white….it was absolutley one of the most georgeous cars I saw. I took about fifty million pics of it…(insert drooling pic here) LOL Then I saw the Trans Am that I wanted…it was Red too…LOL The WS6 package…the wheels on it were pretty dang tight too… So…I looked all over for a new hat..hit several booths and just couldn’t find the one that said..”pick me pick me” So about thirty minutes before it was closing up, we went upstairs to the toy-o-rama, I was looking for a GTA for my collection at home, and that’s when I saw it. It was a pretty simple hat..but it screamed at me! It’s red with a White Chevy emblem on it, and in black it says Camaro underneath, and Chevrolet on the sides. It was perfect, and only 6 dollars…so..Win Win for me =)!! After the AutoRama, went back and hung out with friends, watched Deathrace…that was a pretty good movie, I was surprised!! So Saturday was pretty busy. Sunday, I slept in…then just vegitated. All in all a great weekend!!

So, see ya’ll on the flip side!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

This was sent to me, and I just thought I would share it with my friends

A birth certificate shows that we were born, a death certificate shows that we died, and pictures show that we lived…..have a seat, relax, and read this slowly.

I Believe…
That just because two people argue, doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, doesn’t mean they do love each other.

I Believe…
That we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I Believe…
That no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe…
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I Believe…
That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe…
That it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I Believe…
That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe…
That you can keep going long after you think you can’t.

I Believe…
That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe…
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe…
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe…
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe…
That my best friend and I can do anything, or nothing, and have the best time.

I Believe…
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you When you’re down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe…
That sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe…
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had, and what you’ve learned from them…..and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I Believe…
That it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe…
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I Believe…
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe…
That you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe…
Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I Believe…
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.

I Believe…
That even when you think you have no more to give, if a friend cries out to you……..you will find the strength to help.

I Believe…
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe…
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; They just make the most of everything.

Thanks to all the wonderful people who help us throughout the journey of life.

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Howdy Ya’ll!!

Well, I am just sitting here…at work…cuz that seems to be the only time lately when I can blog. So, today has been crap. My dryer freaked out and I woke up to it in the kitchen with Mom telling me there was water in the vent duct…I was like…WTH. So, I get to work, and get an angry tummy, so I am dealing with that…I come back to my desk after my lunch break, and try to log into my computer. Nothing! No log in screen…no response. So I hard boot the machine, and the log in screen comes up, I log in…and half my desktop is gone. Very important stuff is missing. I start freaking out and getting angry…I call our corporate helpdesk and they proceed to tell me to do the things I have already done. Then they make it worse…UGH…so we do a system restore…and take my PC back to yesterday.

So that is the crazy part of my day. On the way into work I realized, that we have back to back Friday the 13th’s. That should make for interesting days…yeah I can be a little superstitious…Sometimes….

Have I told you guys lately how much I don’t like the month of February? LOL…Oh well…right…not really much I can do about it… I will be celebrating SAD this year. It is also my Mom’s birthday. So, we are hopefully going to have a good time, I am going to take her to dinner, and then hopefully up to Winstar.

Well, I think I am out of things to say at the moment…ya’ll have a good one…I will see ya on the flip side.

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Woot!!

38 days til I leave for vacation!! I am sooo excited. I have alot that is supposed to happen over the next 38 days or so. I am paying off my current vehicle, and hopefully getting a different one Hopefully the Vue that I want. I am trying to figure out all the trip expenses, and what all I want to do and when. I have 3-4 days of activities in mind. It should keep the kids pretty active and happy. This is going to be totally awesome!!!

Well, just thought I would drop by and say Hi! and talk about my evergrowing excitement!! Yay!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Ever just sit and wonder….what is gonna happen next? I do that alot. Lately, I put myself out there to see…what is gonna happen next…and it is never what I expect it to be. I really am not sure what to expect from me, or anyone else for that matter.

So, I got my vacation approved, the one I have been waiting on forever it seems like. I have all these things spinning around in my head…I am anxious to go to Georgia, to go see my best friend and my niece dogs. I am sooo excited!! There are some mixed emotions with it too…LOL..I am not going to enjoy the coming home part. That I think is going to be the longest drive home I will ever make. I wish I could put into words all the stuff….I can’t stop smiling, knowing that I get to go see him. The kids are way excited!! They miss him too. It’s funny cuz, I was told that I missed the dogs more than him…Nope…I think I miss him more right now than I have ever!! Knowing that I get to see him and the dogs and spend a week just chilling and seeing the sites of Georgia!! We are going to the zoo, and the aquarium, and the World of Coke, and the Botanic Gardens…It’s gonna be so much fun!!

To tell the truth, I am a little nervous. I am scared when I see him, I may cry….that won’t be a little strange now will it. I have thought about it, and I don’t know what he would think…he would probably call me a goober.

I miss him sooo much. It brings tears to my eyes when I think about seeing him. He really doesn’t know what kind of impact he has had in my life. I can’t imagine him not in my life somehow. He is one of the best friends that I have ever had. He means so much to me. That is why it’s going to be a long drive home.

I really am not sure what to expect out of myself over the next 39 days…This could be a little uppity as it gets closer…I am really…really excited to take this trip!

Well, I am going to head to bed….Ya’ll have a good one!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty