Morning! Well, I am sitting here…supposed to be trying to sleep. Guess what? I got stuff on my brain, it’s not letting me sleep….

I have worries…I have hopes…I have wishes…I have stresses…I have love…I have dislike…. All of that all rolled up…keeps me up. It’s amazing how something so out of the reach of your touch and feel, and power can cause such stress and hope. Its odd…I have so much to be thankful for in my life, and so much to give…except for when someone needs it. I can’t give them what they really need to make things work. I would give them my all…everything they asked for…. I can’t though…It is sooo frustrating to me. All I can really do, is just offer to be there for them, mentally and emotionally. Physically is damn near impossible..and monetarily…well it’s a struggle for me…but if I had it..I would give it…. Is it strange to be that way with someone…and not know…. I guess maybe the fact that I hold those I love close to me, whether physically or not, enables me to want to be there for them…however I can….

It brings tears to my eyes when I can’t be there to help, when I am stuck and can’t do things to help relieve the pain and frustration and stress. I know how frustrating it is to want someone to just turn to, and just let them help….and them not be there. It’s quite frustrating….

Sometimes I think that I care outside of my abilities. Yeah…that makes no sense to me either….This is when I know that I am tired…I think at this point I am going to say good night…if I go any further I may short out my keyboard…….

Love, Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty