Reflections…..

We all look in the mirror and see who we are on the outside, all our little imperfections we want to change, all the small things that make us who we are. We look in the mirror and we see our reflection.

Reflections…..

We look back at our life and we look through all the things we have done and all the things we had. At the end of every year, I go through this period of reflection. I look at me in the mirror, and I think to myself…I need to color my hair, my grey is showing. I need to smile more, I am getting frown lines..LOL…I need to start doing more physical activity, lose some of this fat. Then I look deeper. I need to smile more, it really isn’t all that bad. I need to open up my heart and mind more, it may help in future relationships. I need to explore the world more, knowledge is power. I need to move on from those things that stop me.

Reflections….

I see me, I see me and all of my imperfections. I see all of the things that I need to change. I see all of the things that make me beautiful. My eyes, my warmth, my ability to love so willingly. I see the good in me, and my ability to see the good in others. I see the love for my children and my family and the ability to let that feeling grow and expand. I see the changes my life has already taken and those effects it has had. My divorce was a huge change, and one I am still adjusting to. It changes the way you look at life. It changes how you feel about relationships, it changes how you look at your children. Your priorities change. I think more about my children now than I did before…is that bad? Everything I do, I think about the consequences it has toward my children now more than ever. It’s amazing, because when you become a single parent…everything changes. Yes, he is still in their life, but not on a regular basis. Everything I do….It all affects them. If I call in sick and don’t get paid for that day…it affects them. If I decide to date someone, it affects them. If I lose my job, car, or whatever, it affects them. They are my reason for doing everything I do. The reason I work 90+ hours when I can. The reason I want to get a better car, so I know that they are safe when I am driving them around. The reason I want a house, so they can play and run and jump, and not tick the neighbors off downstairs!! They are my reason….

Reflections….

I have reflected on my past and present life over the last few days. I have had the time to do it… What conclusion do I come to? Keep on working for my kids…I am their support beam, I am the one that can make their dreams come true…It may be hard and I may struggle, but it is for them.

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty