It’s amazing how a simple conversation can make a person doubt and fear doing something.

Why should it matter, that one person doesn’t think that you are doing the right thing? Why should it matter, that one person thinks you are doing it for other reasons? I honestly don’t know, but it does.

The past few weeks, I have been thinking. What about, you may ask. Well, maybe I shouldn’t persue the goals that I think would make things better in my life. Maybe I should try and just not be the available one, the one that is always there. Maybe I should try to disinclude myself. If it can bring on bad things with the kids…..maybe I should reconsider it all?

It’s a shame that one person can have such an effect on you, when they say just a few things…espcially since they are no longer an integral part of your life.

I have a few months before a dedicated decision has to be made. I will talk it over with all involved, and make sure that my decision is beneficial to everyone. Then again…It may be beneficial for a minute and then painful for a lifetime. All we can do is watch and wait…..

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty