Archive for July, 2008

Hola Peeps!!

I am bored…what happens when I get bored? Well I get a little insane…and things that would normally be kept deep inside of my mental prison are sometimes set free!!! Mwuahahahahaha….:D So…here I am, and I am just sitting around listening to my iPod and waiting for work to be done. So…I am a little hyped up on Sugar and chocolate!! i have this content buzzing through my entire body…it’s rather funny feeling.

I have been thinking about another pet. I don’t really want another cat…I can’t have a dog. I was thinking something small. Maybe a guinea Pig or a Ferret. Then I think about the kids, cat, and well…I don’t think any of them would be appreciative of another animal. So, then my mind swings to something else…maybe fish…??? Then I think of the expense and the tank and water upkeep…and what kind of fish. Maybe just a beta…Goldfish always die…LOL.

I have also been trying to come up with stuff to occupy my mind. I am reading more. I am playing games on my computer more. Getting better at Zuma!! I am also leveling up on WoW. So…other than that…I am just living in the here and now.

So…yeah…it has taken me forever to get this far…calls, break, and well general distraction from my coworker!!

Well, I guess that is it for now. Lots of love!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Dreams…..

Are they visions of what we want…or just there to taunt us? Do we dream because it makes us feel better about the things in life that aren’t all that good. Just an illusion of happiness? I dream quite often…anything from walking on the beach..to sexual fantasies. Lately though, I have had some haunting dreams. Anywhere from my dad telling me he has to go….to my best friend telling me he can’t do it all alone, and needs me there. Are they speaking to me through my dreams? Are they trying to call to me? I hate not understanding!! Dream dictionaries don’t help…I want to know. I believe that it is just my self conscience telling me what I want to hear…but I think that makes it worse. I don’t really know sometimes. Oh well…maybe it’s just the lack of sleep and the meds that are causing it. I have been sick, so I am taking meds….and sometimes they cause weird dreams…so does respberry tea!! I have way weird dreams after drinking it…I wonder why?

Oh well, goodnight ya’ll!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

This is kinda early for a rambling session, but I am pretty tired. It’s been abit since I just kinda rambled on about anything and everything. So, let’s see where this takes me.

So, it’s been a little over a week since my birthday, and I left Georgia. I have to say that I am coping quite well. It’s all quite ummm….sobering. All I wanted to do at first is go back. I sat around wishing I had stayed a couple of extra days…not that it would have changed anything. I still wish I would have….

I have been having problems sleeping lately, it could be due to alot of different factors..being sick is one of them. The other being stress. I have over the past couple of days been able to sleep a little more. I even dreamed last night…first time since before I left on vacation. It was WAY weird…but I dreamed. So, my mind is slipping back into the mode it needs to be in. That is a good thing.

I took my daughter and I to get our hair cut today. There are a few pics in the gallery of mine, I don’t post the kids pics up if I can help it. I am quite happy with it. My daughter’s is way cute too!!

Let’s see…what else…my birthday kinda sucked this year….I spent 90% of it in airports and on planes!! Crazy insane!! Oh well, I got a good burger out of it!

So, here I am to today in a roundabout sorta way. I am at home, and it feels weird. I haven’t been home this much on the weekends in a long time. I guess it’s time to go into recluse mode again, and just kinda stick close to home for awhile. Not really much of anything I want to do….I look forward to the second Saturday of every month though. Oh well, life goes on, whether we want it to or not.

I guess that is it for now. Hopefully these will get cheerier over the next while…you may still get a mopey one every now and again…I still miss him…It’s been rough, but I am a tough ole bird…I will survive!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Well…it’s Thursday night…I am exhausted and got the crud!! Been a helluva week! Today has just drug along….feels like it may never end!! I am tired, but haven’t been sleeping well. Since I have the crud, I have been wanting it colder in the house…and I can’t seem to get it cold enough!! Maybe I am losing my mind…I normally hate being cold!!

Well I get to hang out here at the house this weekend. I may have another carwash playdate Saturday, and if I have the money, my Princess may get claybarred!! We will hafta see about that! Well, I am about to try and go get some sleep. I have another long day tomorrow!

Ya’ll have a good one!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

So, this is gonna be an emotional one…Warning you now…you may not want to read it!!

I made a comment once that you should take baby steps, and the response was that I didn’t take baby steps I take leaps and bounds…well this is one of those.

So…they say home is where the heart is….well if that is true, then I should be back in Georgia. My heart is there. I left it there when I left yesterday. I don’t know why, I can’t explain a lot of it. I know that my heart is broke and that I miss you!! Here they come again, the tears….I have been doing this for 2 hours now, off and on!! I thought this was going to be easy and uncomplicated. I thought I was ready to try and get past this…I ain’t ready!! I needed more time…I needed to know…what? That it’s not a mutual feeling? That I just have an easy heart? That it’s all my imagination? I don’t know!!!! I am trying to get it all out…it’s not working, it just keeps coming…I hear a song, see a picture…a movie…something on the web…and it brings it all back to him!! I know that this is insane!! I know that he probably thinks I am a nutcase!! I don’t care!! I love him…and my heart is broken…I feel so incomplete…I feel so lost…I feel so…..just broken!! Home is where the heart is….well my heart isn’t at home with me…It’s in Georgia with him….Take care of it while it’s there, and be gentle…don’t forget the disk…..

Hugs and Kisses

Kitty

Well folks I wil be home in about 12 hours. I am flying in later this evening. Georgia has been fun. I got to see some of Downtown yesterday, and it was pretty cool, they have a lot of neat stuff down there. I got some pics I will post up in the next day or so, so ya’ll stick around!!

Well, I am gonna go hop in the shower. Ya’ll have a good one, see ya in a few!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Well, I am here and safe for the moment!! Got caught up on sleep last night, and feel 100 times better today!! We made it in about 6 hours later than planned due to some snafus along the way, but we made it!! YAY!!!!!

I will check in again when I have more time!! Ya’ll stay safe and have a good one!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Heya peoples!!

I am going to be out of pocket for a few days!! So, play safe, and be good :p !! Dont do anything I wouldn’t do, which isn’t really much, and try everything I have done, at least once!! LOL!! Ya’ll have a good week, and I will try to be in touch sometime next week!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Ugh….it’s broken. I was never this breakable as a child. In the past year and a half, my children have had combined, now, three broken bones. My son had a broken arm March before last. Thrn this last year he had a broken pinky. Now my daughter has a ‘chipped’ ankle. The doctor threw me into a panic when she said broken. It’s just a chip though. It could have been worse!! Well, I can knock on wood, that I have never broken anything. Let’s hope it stays that way, as I drift into old age Well, ya’ll have a good one!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty

Ever wonder what you are going to do when you think that someone is going to do a stupid act? Yeah…kinda vague. See there is a person in my life that I am trying to gently remove. They seem to keep coming back for more. Well. I think they are about to do something that will make me somewhat not happy. LOL. I really hope they don’t because, I am not a person who likes to make people feel bad, and when I am given something, I take it and say thank you. I don’t what I am going to do, if this person gets me something that I know and he knows he shouldn’t! I would send it back, but that is rude. LOL…..I am really to nice a person sometimes. Oh well, only thing I can do, is jsut hang out and see what happens, and judge my reactions to what shows up.

Hugs and Kisses,

Patience and Tolerance,

Kitty