I sit here in the darkness.

The sound of water and nature pouring from the speakers.

I relax and open my mind. I see the inside of me, and realize that it is kinda blue right now. I feel the music reach out to me, and I close my eyes, and let it caress my soul. Maybe one day it will be clean, and I will get to see the me, that has been missing all these years. I thought I had found it a year ago. Then she went back into hiding.

I sit here and I wonder will I ever be the me I used to be? Will I ever be the me I want to be? I miss the me, that was always smiling, always happy, always there for whoever needed me. Now I am smiling sometimes, laughing when I need to. There when asked and well sometimes not there at all. I have lost my best friend over it all, and I have missed years of my life living in the nether regions of my heart and soul. I gave all I had to one person for so long, I don’t know that I will ever find me again. She is here, I feel her…..I just need the right person to bring her back.

Well, guys and gals, I think that this CD is making me Uber sleepy. Thanks for letting me share. I appreciate it!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty