Silence

Stillness

Complete Quiet

I long for it, knowing that it is right there. Yet I turn away from it, because it is scary too. When there is silence, you are alone, and what is there when you are alone? Your thoughts, your hopes, your dreams, and your nightmares. Why do we crave what we want and don’t want all at the same time? Example, I can’t wait til I get the next two weeks all to myself, no kids, no mom, noone but me. But what do I do, I am making plans to not be at home as much as possible. Why, cuz I hate to be alone, but I crave alone time. Another example, I want someone to share my fun, joy, and heart with, but I don’t want a total commitment yet, cuz I have trust issues and I dont know that I want to settle back into a relationship. Yet I crave all the attention that a boyfriend would give. Another example, I want to share my art with the world, but I don’t want them to think differently of me. My writing isn’t tame by any means. So, what can we do?

We go day by day, and give ourselves what we can when we can. We enjoy the silence, until we can’t bear it anymore. We love who we can, when we can, and then move on. We share what we can when we can, and hope that we are accepted in all things. It is amazing what we discover about ourselves if we just open our eyes and listen.

Live, Love, Share!!

Hugs and Kisses,

Kitty